It's the first day of skool, and i already can't take it.

Im back, to square one. Everything seems so fine on the surface for martin .


i walked into skool just like any other day , saw my 'long time no see' besties zhixiang and peiru , they seems to be doin fine. =) good for em ! and zhixiang sure become a more cheerful person. LESS emo sessions this yr alrite? Hhahas as for peiru , i still luv the way she luff. very cute.ahahas , and noisy =X. missed both of u loads durin my overseas trip. =)

Anw, the whole day ppls had been screamin , shocking , eye-ing on me.

I feel like a superstar , NOT.

Things change when thing changed. People have a different view of me . It's not my imagination . i had read their mind. Their eyes told me everything.

Martin is recieving all the 'special treatments' from teachers , pitied by his peers.

I am stupid enough to walk ard with that white freshmen shirt , sayin hi to my frens as if im some hero returned from a foreign country.

During the mass dance, zhixiang tried to pull me to the other end of the hall( makin fun of me and somone again) . I refused. Not dat i dun wan her to see me , but actualli, i don't want them to see me. Surrounded by a whole bunch of promoted J1 , I feel like shit inside. ( Note : Hey, not blamin u here! In fact , i feel so much more secured with you guys( you , peiru and the 112 peeps) ard. =) )

During the talks , i was given the honour to pon it legally . Then i realised ,

i got no where to go.

I can't find a place where i could fit myself in.

i had lost my sense of belonging.

Hiding behind the basketball court , i stoned my hours away , till night fall.

Everybody's left. And im alone , dancing in the rain .

Flipping my wallet,