Hm..Probably the worst day i got so far in 2007? physically and mentally devastated.

you know? my neck n left leg ain't in a good shape since yesterday after dance. And there's this everlasting throat infection + fever(because of flu i guess) going on.

But yea..i think it should be fine if i dun push myself too hard today.

And must thank weixin here for helpin me out for dance! Yeah! and she said my dance's cute. yay! BETTER DEN EEBENG AND CORNY one. LA LA LA~~(hahas.)

Crap. this entry supposed to be sad. ><

Haha yea. then here comes my first visitor of the day, sharon! hhas. i taught her the zouk dance and great! shes a fast learner! already get the feel of it. Smart girl! And we discussed about the chair dance of luozhixiang. Hahas maybe i shld try it next week. Miss ang dun blame me if i break some chairs tmr. HAHA~

Yeah..then something happened..

Zhixiang came to the studio, with this super emo and depressed look. He cried, eyes all red. And there goes our brother sharin session again. Passin him tissues and all.

I walked him to the schoolgate...sorry dude...i dunno what i could do to make the situation better....forgive me if i could only lend u martin's listening ear....yea..sumtimes...like what u said...there's thing that i can't do for both of u.....u guys just have to figure it out urself..

i missed the cheerful brother of mine! And u know what? a good news for our boyband. Miss Ang said there's this CVD performance thing goin on. And she requested me to dance on dat day. yea..np for dat one...And she said we can even sing! Hahas. Yeah..it's not really something big..but not bad for a start u know? Givin us all the stage exp...go think about it. =) you shall be our boyband leader. Hahas! I got no leadership! U can do a much better job. =)

Aite, on my way back to the studio , wah saw peiru in the canteen, wearin some other skool uni. NICE MEH!? lols. i dun think it's nice personally.wahahaha~But k lorh..it's cute. And hahas, ur laughter still as crazy as ever! Yeah. so we cam-whore abit and i went back to the studio.

NONONO! This entry supposed to be SAD and emO! what the hell!

By that time..im already half dead actually. I could feel the heat throughout my body.

It's burnin my brain , and could feel the pain everywhere.Yea..no big deal..sign of flu..Jus got to bear with it abit.

And den weixin came. hahas..after teachin her the dance routine , we freestyled quite abit. So fuN! hahas. couldn't stop even though lactic acids were already formin mountains within me. yeah. in love with all the soft hiphop , jazz and ballet. Shld expose myself to more of this sia.. =)

Later on that day, our dance session starts. hm..only a small group of students stayed. Im fine with it . And Bella seems sick today. Hahas....u better eat lorh. That's a bad way to jianfei trust me. im a bio student. heee. exercise more important lazy pig. hm...

lesser ppl, easier to teach. Well...ahahas...it seems so not true.

Hais..probably they are lackin in interest and confidence? They jus refused to dance along..even for stretchin..it's like we are teachin the air to dance...while they are sittin ard and watch .

yeah..i know u guys hav a long day...and still got hw to do...hm..but maybe u all can just give it a try.........make mistakes nvm...we are more den willing to help....

u know? The expresso 's really ard the corner, 4-6 more sessions, dat's it, u guys will be on the dancefloor. me and zouk really wan it to be a good one..cos afterall..it's probably our so called 'last dance' in YJ.


it's really depressin , i feel so pathetic..and maybe im really pathetic...we did our best...and i dun think i could push myself even harder anymore...but things still not goin rite..

hardwork..passion..patience...sacrifice...what else? u tell me..

Eversince the dance thing started. Im like constantly beggin people to stay. sorry arh..i am like some 'da shao ye' in most part of my life ,and im not used to puttin myself so low. the 'beggin' really irritates me. i found myself irritatin jus to do that...i gort no thick-skin u know?

hahas. and u hor Darren..not tryin to blame u or what larh..but sometimes things dat u said really hurtin. yeah...if u wan to convince ppl to quit , den pls...dun say that straight in my face next time...and think b4 u speak..before i can't stand it anymore and give u a punch in the face.

yeah..on the way back with em..i really kept quiet...don't feel like talkin....it's either im too emo to talk , or too tired to talk...mentally and physically devastated.

hahas...i stoned at the bus-stop for like an hour...doin some self-reflection again..and i dun realli wan my family to see me in this state...

reached home...shower....dinner...took lots of medicine , even anti-biotic(hais..no choice) . Finish this blog entry and hit the bed.


martin's screwed up life,
TO BE CONTINUED. (thanks mummy and granny for all the tonic soups =) )