It's a monday. And i dunno...im feelin emo the whole day.

For no reason?

Well maybe there is....But i thought i could just throw them behind and move on.


Unsaid words huh? I can't take it , keeping things to myself. Im breakin down any moment.

Maybe saying them out here would make my day sumhow better. =)


perhaps not all..but one.


Well. I just realised it recently though ,after the outing ytd.

FAith said im meant for public usage. haaas. Public usage...i thought of it the whole night long....

Maybe it's true...=(
All my besties, my brothers, my sisters , all of em, were moving on...U know...gettin into relationship...gettin themselve new circle of frens...Some of em seems to be walkin out of my life...while others will nv ever talk to me unless they feel sad and all.......

i feel...so unloved. Where am i supposed to belong huh? im lost...not here..and definitely not there....

well...maybe it's because i got no involvement in anything now..that's y im thinkin of all this...arhh.....but it's jus so true....quite affected by what Canice told me the other day in CVD...yeah fren..tell me im not forgotten...please...tell me im not only needed when ur in trouble...tell me im not ur steppin stones...tell me ur not backstabbin me...tell me im more useful, more important than how im seein myself now....=( please...



I'll nv give up on my friends , other than that , im throwin them all behind and move on.

This is my new life. Maybe not this one , but yea. poly. Hopefully i'll make it a good start =)

Valentines ard the corner.

hahas valentines huh? definitely not my kind of day.

Martin wishes all the couples out there Happy valentines day , and make it romantic one guys. haaas.




Martin's screwed up life,
TO BE CONTINUED.