Dance's over! And praise god, finally some quality time with baby.





Muack* hee.
Emo!
Huggies!
erm, husband and wife? i dunno! hahaas.
And at last, Super-martin! tee hee heee bare with my uber ugly handwriting, the thing's counting down and i got rushed to write that down. aahahaa



EEEwww. Spider =X
posing like a model. haa
Concert's venue.
Me and baby!

The day has come!

CHILDREN'S HOME DANCE PERFORMANCE!

But first, Happy 18th Birthday to Rinna! Wish you a good year ahead! =D hug* I'll be there at the chalet, though i couldn't stay overnight ^^


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STUDIO CAMWHORE SESSION. lols.




TPDE Child's home dance crew!



The 3G! hahas. Sideview of our hair.
Corn, Kev, Aud, Andy, Martin and Keith =)
All thanks to the my 3 hairstylists. SAlute*

More camwhore
My twin and my daddy =D
Us with Ah foong, Unice and Meiqi =D


Still got lots more! But the photos' with others i guess. hahahas. Thanks Andy daddy for sending them to me ya?

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We went to this children's home at Clementi! And the first thing i could recall was Mervin gettin himself insulted by one of the kids there. hahaha~

The performance went pretty smooth. it's only the starting had some technical problem, which couldn't be blame i guess.=)

Towards the end we played with the kids abit and a big big photo

It marks the end of out trip and performace.

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it's all over. =)

Dance in the rain,

TO be CONTINUED.

Thanks for everyone showing me concerns. =)

Im really fine now ya? No worries.

Hmmm. I had to apologise to my popping team here. Well, i swear im really sick when i told u guys i am! =) But yaa. the late part i really have nothing to say. LOL.

martin will work on it.^^

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but i made a decision.

After the musical, i won't join in the 'Safe sex' dance.

Really sorry to Redefined Inc.

But i can't afford to devote myself in it.Hope u guys can understand ya? =)

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Dance in the rain,
TO BE CONTINUED>

I can't hold it inside any longer.

Im breaking down.

Everyday seems so empty, and each morning when i wake up, i felt as if something just walked out of my life. it's getting stronger and stronger each day.

Sorry baby. =( I never want to neglect you, i never ever put dance in front of you. It's just that...i joined it...and i got to be responsible enough to stay inside. if you ask me now, i would say, i want to quit, because i don't want us to be that way anymore. =( It's just 2 more days to go. Baby we can do it alrite? After this, we'll work on it and get rid of those distance =)

That, i promised.

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I am sorry guys. I broke too many promises. I made too many empty promises, should i put it this way? I should have just rejected all this promise in the first place, but yet still giving them a chance that i might be able to make it. =(

it's all with me, the promises. it's not forgotten.

That, i promised.


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I am sorry to my family. I promised to give little brother tuition, i promised to hit home by 6, i promised to not treat home like a hotel. But apparently im not doing it. And not that i din make an effort to. I just get so tired after each day and when im back, i just feel like throwing everything at the back of my mind , have a good rest for tmr.

Home's like...a place where i can relax and stay away from war for a moment.

But i'll change.

That, i promise.

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When im in the studio, i kept asking myself. Should i be here? Am i even happy here when every moment i staying in, i am losing much more things on the other hand?

I don;t know. I don't felt anyone close to me now. Not even one. I feel so empty.

And even dance, i can;t even say it's my passion anymore.

It's getting lesser and lesser each day.

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What should i do? Quit? Stay in? Quit? Stay in?


Dance in the rain,
TO BE CONTINUED.

Got back my semester 1 result today!


Business Accounting - A
Mirco-economic - A
Communication skill - B
CSA - B
Principle Management - C
GPA - 3.2

Darn TJ Boh, totally ruined my day. I mean...Hey...if you think the project's not good enough, just shoot at us? Why give us the false hope? Why pretend that we are on the right track all along, and gave us a 60+ for it? and then towards the end when we get our result then you point out all the shit. screw you.

=P I don't feel abit of excitment when i recieved the sms. yawn...C grade...

Lesson learnt : martin should piss tutors less, suck up more.

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Dance pract everyday!

omg, it gonna be a busy and no-life holiday.

=( I know i just break more promises with baby. I promised to pei her more after exam, i promise to go back to my outside frens after settling down in poly, but hey...omg...sigh....I barely have enough time for myself. And i know it's no excuse because if i got the heart to do it, even when there's chains and cannonballs attached to me, i would still do it for the sake of them. I don't know...im confused....I can't seems to juggle all this well. Relationship...Friendship....Passion....Family......Personal life.....Im getting everything haywired, can i really make it a point where there's equilibrium? But when it reach that stage, it seems so wrong because i love the rest all the same, even her?

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Lost.




Dance in the rain,
To be continued.

Happy Birthday to Baby and Kevin!

They love you!

And martin loves you guys too! Though i love baby more. =D

Your smile. =)


5th September - Birthday plan executed!

Din take much photos that day though, but i can roughly recall it!

That day we blindfolded them at Bedok! Just like what we did to May, James and Iman back in May 15. Yet in a much more meaner way by making them walk up and down tables, jumping over empty drain, and crawling for nothing. LOLS.

Mervin and James were laughin away behind the birthday boy n girl. hahaha.

Random camwhoring! wheeee.

Haaa then we reached the K-box Room in Bedok. And it's my part of the show. They unfolded her and put her in the room, only me, and her. Ahhhhhh embarrassin moment!

I sang 'di yi ge qing chen ' to baby, and wishes her happy 17th birthday.

but apparently, i forgot my lyrics. so chui! =X Hope she still like it. It supposed to be sweet, but it's more like funny to her i guess. lol.

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And then Kevin came in too! We sang them both birthday song. ^^

And k all the way until 6+ before leaving to Sepan Bedok to have our dinner.

Badd, Iman, May and a few others pretended that they have to leave early and went off. YAA! I must give Badd the best actor award here!I really thought hes leaving ya know!? wahaha.

While the others lied to them that they wanted to go Pasir Ris Park to see stars.

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All the way at Pasir Ris Park, we gave them the last suprise.Too bad i din take any photos back then cos i am having a slight fever. awww. But we made a big big ' Have a wild 17 ' out of candles on the sand. =D

The next thing i remembered was them so touched that they started walkin ard huggin every single of us. =D

Know what? Im pretty jealous ya know!? My birthday doesn't mean much all this while. sigh, especially my 18th, so nothing that nearly none wishes me. How pathetic. =)

So ya...dun say they dun love you. =) ya? heee.

Loved.

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And we walked through the so-called path of friendship, marks the end of the party. =)

Loves. Happy Birthday.

Dance in the rain,

TO BE COUNTINUED.

Happy birthday baby =)

tonight 12am , i raced down your place, with a box of donut in my hands.

I know i look unglam, i know the feel doesn;t feel right, i know donut looks like mandarin during chinese new year.


But it doesn't matter. All i want to say is that i love you, happy 17th birthday. Not only from me, but on behalf of all of them =)

Tmr, would be a big day for you, that, i promised. =' )


Dance in the rain,
TO BE CONTINUED.