I can't hold it inside any longer.
Im breaking down.
Everyday seems so empty, and each morning when i wake up, i felt as if something just walked out of my life. it's getting stronger and stronger each day.
Sorry baby. =( I never want to neglect you, i never ever put dance in front of you. It's just that...i joined it...and i got to be responsible enough to stay inside. if you ask me now, i would say, i want to quit, because i don't want us to be that way anymore. =( It's just 2 more days to go. Baby we can do it alrite? After this, we'll work on it and get rid of those distance =)
That, i promised.
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I am sorry guys. I broke too many promises. I made too many empty promises, should i put it this way? I should have just rejected all this promise in the first place, but yet still giving them a chance that i might be able to make it. =(
it's all with me, the promises. it's not forgotten.
That, i promised.
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I am sorry to my family. I promised to give little brother tuition, i promised to hit home by 6, i promised to not treat home like a hotel. But apparently im not doing it. And not that i din make an effort to. I just get so tired after each day and when im back, i just feel like throwing everything at the back of my mind , have a good rest for tmr.
Home's like...a place where i can relax and stay away from war for a moment.
But i'll change.
That, i promise.
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When im in the studio, i kept asking myself. Should i be here? Am i even happy here when every moment i staying in, i am losing much more things on the other hand?
I don;t know. I don't felt anyone close to me now. Not even one. I feel so empty.
And even dance, i can;t even say it's my passion anymore.
It's getting lesser and lesser each day.
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What should i do? Quit? Stay in? Quit? Stay in?
Dance in the rain,
TO BE CONTINUED.
