I felt touched after watching '
Iming' in church service this evening. Well, not to the extent that i'll shed my tears, yet, but still, very thought-provoking and i had definitely learnt something out of it. Praise lord. =)
I always see myself as a very forgiving person, who doesn't really hold any grudge with anyone, be it someone who has a problem with me, someone who perjudices me, or someone who hurt me before. Even If ever i did hold any grudge, it'll be forgotten in less that 24 hours time, just like a computer's RAM. But there's this someone, who i will never fail to blame, and hold grudge with, someone who i never want to forgive.
And that is, myself.
Anything goes wrong, im the first one i'll find trouble with. I don't know, maybe i take things too hard. Sometimes, when im alone, i'll think of all those silly and shameless things that i did in the past, those thing that i think i screw up with. Without hesitation, i'll start cursing and frustrate over it.
"i shouldn't had did that back then, damn it" , " Damn, am i stupid or something" , "Awww man...that's so screwed..."
For me, im always someone who believe that you get what you sow, all about internal locus of control. Well..there's good and bad to it. You become more responsible for your own life and a motivated individual, but the downside is that, you fall harder if you fail.
Perhaps i'll be one of those suiciders if there's ever a Iming in the market. Who knows? =)
But from now on, i'll take things easier for myself. Haa! But actually, i'll been doing this for the past few month. Okay! Even lighter. Just take all those screwup past as a learning point, and tell myself, "it's ok, you and i know everyone makes mistake, i'll just overcome it and show you more next time"
Say no to depression. In Jesus name, Amen.
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And im glad that baby, teemo, yong and frens, Jordan and frens, and even TP dancemates' there for the show. =) Hope everyone get something good out of it, and life will get better, for us =D
Sweet dream time. I had my fun today.
Love her, love them, love myself, love jesus.
Dance in the rain,
TO BE CONTINUED.
