Today was a fucked up day.

Got embarrassed in class with her doing all the reverse psychology crap on me. But im quite aware that i well deserved it.

She is right. But one thing she said was definitely not true. If i don't have the courage, i won't even choose to continue despite it's really some sort of killer phobia for me. All i asked for is abit more time. I know she did that to make me wake up. But gosh, i already did. Don't have to give me sucha hard time you know?

Just to let you know, it's not working. And in fact, make me feel like giving up more. But i won't let myself die here. I will push on and show you something more of me.

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Japanese paper was easy. But i don't know how to do AT ALL. Tragic.

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I regretted. I should have just gotten myself an MC and ace the retest rather than taking it now and get a Fail.

Sometimes, maybe i should put down those pride and stubborn bravery, rush into something i know i will kill myself.

I don't know. I think i did the right thing, but a wrong decision.

This world is so contradicting.

Everyone's selfish to some extent. Why can't i be te one selfish once or twice, save myself from everything, treat myself slightly better, stop living in a world to make everyone happy, yet im not.

Dance in the Rain,
TO BE CONTINUED.