26th December 1988 HongKong Singapore
Queens, NewYork Temasek Polytechnic
Nassau College
Business major
Dancer
B.I.Crew X Ovation Crew X TPDE X Marvel Crew
dance obsessively, excessively.
"Always always always...Keep it real But never too quick to judge, my friend."
Sept 1 - School Reopens
Sept 5 - StonyBrook Visit
Sept 6 - Hangout with poppers
Sept 14 - One year
Sept 19 - Observation night
Sept 29 - Mothership Funknight 3
Oct XX - King of NY
What is that sad look in your eyes Why are you crying Tell me now, tell me now Tell me, why you’re feelin’ this way I hate to see you so down, oh baby Is it your heart Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces Makin’ you cry Makin’ you feel blue Is there anything that I can do
Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby And I’ll do my best to make it better Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay I’ll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from Why are they falling Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold You just need somebody to hold on, baby Give me a chance to put back all the pieces Take your broken heart Make it just like new There’s so many things that I can do
Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby And I’ll do my best to make it better Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay I’ll love all of the hurt away
Oh I’m gonna take it all away, baby Is it your heart Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces Makin’ you cry Makin’ you feel blue Is there anything that I can do
Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby And I’ll do my best to make it better Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay I’ll love all of the hurt away
Tell me, baby Tell me, oh yea Is there anything I can do, baby
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay
Someone will be there for you when you are stucked in this situation.
And that,
just won't be me.
Gonna be fine without someone like me around.
So cold tonight, because it's coming strong at me,
and bye all the loved ones.
Martin.
Date / Time : Monday, March 30, 2009 / 11:18 PM
3 more training days to concert.
Elephants starting to build up in my stomach.
Pretty worried, because my steps ain't all that clean and sure yet. GOT TO SERIOUSLY CLEAN MYSELF UP TMR.
Even though hiphop's meant to be dirty, that's not my excuse to look different from the rest. LOL.
Today's a waste of time, too much waiting time, too little studios for cleaning up usage, the lyrical peoples were like wondering ghosts, seeking for a place to settle down and dance. Tragic.
Oh well! Work hard all. 3 more days, and it will make a big difference if we make use of it wisely. : )
I'll make things right and not end up causing troubles and hurts to anyone.
Because..
Im just a goner at the end of the day.
Martin.
Date / Time : Saturday, March 28, 2009 / 11:35 PM
To: my family, dance friends, classmates , wed crewmates, outside friends that coming to support martin,
TPDE production starting to take shape, which is a good thing. :)
All it left will be hardcore cleaning up to make it real tight.
I believe it will be a good show.
I don't feel it as strong as last year's production.
But seems like, it will be my last.
And my last time to show my loved one what i can do, what martin really can do for his friends, by being on stage, infest them with my love and enjoyment for dance.
Choreographing on the spot's kinda stressful, somemore i don't know the beats of the song well, and worried what turns out might not fit the music or others might find it hard, or simply don't like it. But i only got a few minutes to come out of it, and rewinding the song too much might piss people off.
Just twice, 2 shots to listen to that portion , feel and go.
Somehow it pulled off after much compromising to the rest. So i guess phewww, its a pass. : )
I feel grateful to Gin cos she let me choreo 2 eigths of it. :D Only 2 eigths, but im happy enough.
Arigato. : ) Though you still mixed me up with Keiths. -.-
And CS and dota's fun with Kevin and Niger. LOLS!
I will pwn u with shield next time.
Tmr crew session. See you guys tmr.
Give Ovation Crew handsign**
Peace.
Martin.
Date / Time : Thursday, March 26, 2009 / 2:00 AM
Sorry, if my emotion takes control of me, saying and doing things that might hurt/offend people.
Deep inside, appreciated all those cares, but its just me that i cannot get out of it in time for care and concern to come.
Thanks Jonas and Kevin. Without you both, i probably will be hiding there until the last bus, and take everything alone with me.
I prayed under the moonlight, hoping god will listen to what i want to say, and there it is, angels appeared.
but just me and the bleeding knuckles to ease the pain away.
Am i not strong?
When i can take shits one after another, just by staying and swallowing pain alone, it's all up to my resolve to do the magic.
I've grown to become like that. You clear up your own shit, because no one going to catch you when you get destroyed.
Once in a bluue moon, it is,
too unbearable.
and that's the time,
i shall vanish.
Martin.
Date / Time : Wednesday, March 25, 2009 / 12:53 AM
Will work harder. Thanks for the compliments by fellow dancemates and Gin. : )
Then again, alot more to work on.
Now im still seeking freedom and feel, and after that, it will be playing with the beats, and then finding the frequency and accents in it.
One step at a time man, i can't rush and skip. I still got time to play around with it. KO-night around the corner, current standard, it will still be ownage by the opponents.
And sessioning's fun today. Michael from studiowu dropped by to give us a few tips on dance and some basics on house and popping. Asked him some questions regarding hitting, oldman, walkout and freestyle, and by watching him freestyle, i got a few discoveries. Don't think he will come to my blog, but thanks a million!! Hope michael will come and session with us again when he's having his break from studiowu : )
Blog song changed again. Don't know, just keep changing. : ) Nevertheless, dope song.
NE-YO - Empty Frames
Hmmm I can feel the raindrops slowly falling and they calling for they keep calling for my knight in shining armour come and save me cause im drowning in pain
ive been hurt by his mistakes so come and take me away i put him first i thought he'd stay but he couldn't weather the storm so he left me the rain
over time, pictures fade all thats left are these empty frames sleepless nights, and stormy days i've got proof that people change and all thats left are these empty frames all thats left are these empty...
can you hear these teardrops in my pillow they keep falling cause i kept falling for your dozen thorny roses now im bleeding and im lonely again
now im hurt it's my mistake i should have known right away i put him first i thought he'd stay but he couldn't weather the storm so he left me the rain
over time, pictures fade all thats left are these empty frames sleepless nights, and stormy days i've got proof that people change long after the smiles all fade away all this endless pain all this empty space
sleepless nights, and stormy days i've got proof that people change over time, pictures fade and all thats left are these empty frames
over time, pictures fade all thats left are these empty frames sleepless nights, and stormy days all thats left are these empty...
over time, pictures fade and all thats left are these empty frames sleepless nights, and stormy days i've got proof that people change
Awesome time with Zhixiang tonight, we chilled at Clarke Quay, one of the pub and drink. : ) And good things were that we's still pretty much the same. The feeling never change, no matter how long we stopped meeting.
Guess this is the special bond i have with friends like you!! :D Will definitely treasure you! And i promised you a Taiwan trip once ur out of army. : ) I still keep the taiwan notes u gave me the other time, waiting for you to bring me there and spend it. :D
That's, a promise man. You will always always always be the no.1 friend who walked into my life.
And for that, i decided to change my blog song. It just express what i feel now, towards leaving this place, and missing my friends over here, promised to meet again someday.
------------------------------------------------------------ Evan Yo - Wo Xiang Yao Shuo
I want to learn a song, so that i can sing for my friends at the airport.
Im blessed with lovely things in my life.
Martin.
Date / Time : Friday, March 20, 2009 / 4:58 PM
i hug my ipod,
play the saddest songs to sleep.
MIA-ed, for 3 hours.
Martin.
Date / Time : / 3:51 PM
This song too emo. I think i need a new blog song. I need photos to life up this place. But since there's facebook, putting photos here's a chore.
Can't think straight,
issit the popper disease,
or its just me.
Anw, new direction for the concert, something challenging
To be, a sexy popper.
l...o...l...
It's been awhile since i feel stressed for choreography.
That time is rahim's addicted,
and now, this.
I can do it.
GO ME!!
WhooHOO!
I feel so sadistic, but by getting punished by Foong i feel i gained something out of it. I don't find dancing choreography alone as stressful anymore, or is it just that i learn to freestyle and feel the music more.
I wonder.
But nevertheless, thanks for the punishment.
LOL. And fellow dancemates that gave me encouragements along the way, means alot to me.
Dope session today! Or should i say, dope camwhore session today.
AH J's dope i tell you, she got props for camwhore one. LOL. Got toy dog, got carebear, got all sort of specs and other random things.
And today's attendence! Me, Ter, Chansee, Jess, Ah J and JJ. Before that still got Karen and Liting from NRA, and then Niger joined us after his meetin! :D
Damn fun please. HAHAA. Besides having fun, we still have some performance to settle.
Guess it's about time to get serious too. :) And i finally met all my dancemates who's performing with me for the coming Zouk and Emerge.
Can't wait. It's so stressed cos im practically dance-overload.
Me, Niger, Ter, Chansee, Gen, JJ, Tim, Jess, Aaron, Chewie, and some other people and friends!
Before session,
me and niger were like having a PSP session, playing Monster hunter 2G. damn fun! bwahhahaas. Never defeated a Congolala before, though im just watching the fight from a distance, and rush in to tickle it with my noob weapon.
Feel encouraged because my hardwork finally being seen. But i know i still got a long way to go. Still, it means alot to me. Thanks guys. : )))) Will work hard, and learn to express myself through the dance.
lol..And its not that i don't want to form a boyband actually. I tried. And very long time back he offered me a chance, but i gave up, because i know there's a time-bomb waiting for me.
Boom. Gratz.
You just killed everyone and you are the only survivor.
Grrrr...a post to vent...ignore me.
Martin.
Date / Time : Saturday, March 14, 2009 / 1:52 AM
'Coming Soon' 's a super sick movie.
Sick in a sense that it's not disgusting, but a really dope horror!!
Can be compared to classics like 'the Ring' please.
But thanks to the show, another sleepless night.
Good luck to my training tmr.
Again, it's 10am.
Im starting to get drained from dance all over again.
So little time, yet so much to work on.
I'm no where near good.
My popping doesn't look like popping,
my hiphop doesn't look like hiphop,
my moves get restricted because of various reasons.
As time goes, i find it harder and harder to feel and enjoy the music,
to find the freedom of dance in me.
Well, maybe im just stressed and too focus on improving but the fact is, im not moving higher.
Take it easy, Martin.
Dance, smile, and feel the music once again.
Don't let the external factors hinder you.
Please go back to my own world, IN MY OWN WORLD : ) --------------------------------------------------------------
Sometimes, i feel, i really need a slap.
And im falling deeper and deeper into this feeling.
The truth is,
Nothing is possible for me anymore.
There's alot of things i want to say,
there's alot of love i want to show,
but at the back of my head,
it says,
it's just not for you.
Time to let go,
time to let people forget about your existence,
and it will be less painful for everyone when letting insignificant me go.
Disappear, gone with the wind.
I will take the pain away.
It will be a painless farewell for yall.
To those i loved, those i cared, those who i fell for,
those who completed my life.
don't ever cry for me, Martin.
Date / Time : Tuesday, March 10, 2009 / 11:34 PM
That day...
I saw an old uncle at the MRT selling Tissue Paper.
Observed him for one hour while waiting for Fatin.
Respect.. Every single time, every single wave of pedestrians crossing over the road, he will stand up, hold the tissue with both hands, showing his ulmost sincerity in selling the tissues to any passers-by under the hot son.
I could tell that he got difficulties standing for long hours. Yet he still forced himself to do so. And on an average of 30 minutes, he will only get around 1 or 2 customers. All he had with him was this folded chair, and a bottle of half-drank mineral water, lasting him for the day. He doesn't even want to waste the leftover water, because hes drinking it so sparingly, to a point he drink the water i can't even tell the water level goes down.
LOOK I KNOW IM RETADED OBSERVING UNTIL THIS EXTENT...But but...
At that moment, i just feel that he is the man. He don't care about what other people think of him, and he probably doing this for the sake of the family suffering from poverty. The uncle seem so desperate, he just keep repeating his rountine time and time again, and everytime no one approach him, he will sigh and sit down, preparing for the next batch of pedestrians to cross over.
I feel so sour inside,
i wish my 2 bucks can bring more than just a moment of joy and laughter for him,
i wish i won't see another old folks or disabled selling tissue papers on the street,
I wish i can do something more,
I wish to grow up to be a great person who can impact someone positively, who can make the world a better place.
But to express the music and bring joy to people : )
My life, TO BE CONTINUED.
Date / Time : Saturday, March 07, 2009 / 11:43 PM
Yesterday's freaking pissing. GGGRRRRRRR!!!...
You know..I've been dancing while running a fever for the past few days,
and it gotten worst on Saturday,So i decided to rest first,
and then go for the second-half of the training in TP Studio.
BUT! I already got a bad feeling there might be last minute changes in venue, so i tried to called some of my dance friends to double-check. No one pick up. Lol....
Pray: "GOT PPL! GOT PPL! SHLDHAVPPL ONE!".......
When i got there, the studio's empty!
HUNGRY,SWEAT, SICK, FRUSTRATED.
When someone finally picked up, they said training ended already. WTP!
I cabbed down 14 bucks just to go TP eat a vending Machine Toast. WTF!
At the bus-stop,
WTP again! I forgot to bring my housekey. GRRRRRR!!!
I feel like punching the bus-stop pole. RAAAHHH!
All the retribution of me being too blur.
Flipping through pages of contact list, trying to get someone to take me in for the day.
Thank god May, Yanti, Fatin and Amelia took me in.
I went steamboat with them. LOL. Like damn random.
The mini-gathering's like soooDBSK theme. DBSK music, movie, poker cards, topics, its all about Korean Boyband.
And watched 2 damn boring and lame horror movies at night, before i knock out while they watch Step up 2 at ard 4am.
And Fatin house's like Sauna. Cannot sleep at night one! AAAHHH!!
In the middle of the night, i woke up, just to find myself 4 super unglam sleepers. May seriously the worst, sleep damn unglam. Like cui to the max kind. HAHAHAHA! I should have taken a photo and post on Facebook. lol.
But thanks! It was FUN and RANDOM. Damn long never hang out with yall already : D
LOVE YOU ALL BIG BIG. : )
martin.
Date / Time : Sunday, March 01, 2009 / 1:48 AM
Clubbed at Phuture last night. It was HORRIBLE. I swear i won't go there again.
me, Kevin, Ter, Nigel and Jess went, with some of Nigel and Jess's friends.
Unfortunately, it was having an event, and we waited for like 1.5 hour outside the club just to try getting ourselves in. Then after gettin in, another one hour of waiting time to settle the bag-deposit.
By the time we settled everything, i think it was like around 2am already. Everyone damn sian, damn no mood for it already.
And i swear it is not a place to dance. Freaking SMALL, PACKED, only got sufficient space to stand around. And seeing people around me bua-ing each other. GGrrrr.. Guess i can't blame them, it is a club afterall, people generally came here, for THAT purpose.
While we dancers were the minority, who wants to seek freedom and enjoy dance.
For me, i want to find a place that can free my mind to train freestyle.
Er er, wrong place. Thank god Mervin never come. HAHA. He needs the rest for his production tmr anyway. All da best bro. : )
Quest Crew's dope ah. i watched the last episode already. Jawdrop.
Bravo for both perf.
The most touching thing i see in them, is the way they enjoy dance and love each others company. It is a REAL crew, one for all, all for one. :D Admirable. Just like a....
family perhaps :)
And BeatFreaks they are damn strong in whatever they do, but i still can see the individualism in them.