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DANCEwithme
Your Funky Ultra-Boy
Martin Shin

★ Music INSPIRES dance & dance BEFORE style ★

26th December 1988
HongKong
Singapore
Queens, NewYork
Temasek Polytechnic
Nassau College
Business major
Dancer
B.I.Crew X Ovation Crew X TPDE X Marvel Crew
dance obsessively, excessively.


"Always always always...Keep it real
But never too quick to judge, my friend."


Music inspires dance
Do you feel me?


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Calender 2010
keep me going


Sept 1 - School Reopens
Sept 5 - StonyBrook Visit Sept 6 - Hangout with poppers
Sept 14 - One year
Sept 19 - Observation night
Sept 29 - Mothership Funknight 3
Oct XX - King of NY


TAGBOARD
let me hear you.




AFFILIATES
endless connections.

J.Crosses Goodloving
Martin&Crosses
AH TER SpringMelon
KevinDoodlepants
Gen mom
Chansee
Allycia
Jessica Ah J
Veronica Nai ma
Jonas Black Tie
Keiths poppin twin
Audrey Ayozi
Niger bra
Nelson Lokto
Wailam L
Zhixiang buddyforlife
Peiru da jie
Yong kogepan
Gangyi bro
Alicia ma-ma
joey nu-er
May sis
Liting Kupo
Fion Quack
Suriaaa
Amberlene 'Smoker'
Rinna Rimmers
Iman Nathaniel
Ming
Amelia
Gary
Yanti
Melissa(xiaoxin)
LeVon
Serene
Pearl
Emili
Darryl


REMINISCENES
my faded memories.
  • July 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • January 2007
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
  • April 2007
  • May 2007
  • June 2007
  • July 2007
  • August 2007
  • September 2007
  • October 2007
  • December 2007
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • June 2008
  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009
  • October 2009
  • November 2009
  • December 2009
  • January 2010
  • February 2010
  • March 2010
  • April 2010
  • May 2010
  • June 2010
  • July 2010
  • August 2010
  • September 2010
  • October 2010
  • November 2010
  • January 2011
  • July 2011
  • December 2011


  • CREDITS
    spontaneous applauds

    Layout: materialisti-c
    Inspirations: exquisite?
    Editing: smoker



    Date / Time : Tuesday, March 31, 2009 / 12:26 AM
    Seriously wtf martin.





    I don't understand this feeling anymore.

    Fucking screw it.

    -------------------------------------------------------------------

    Mymp - Tell Me Where It Hurts

    What is that sad look in your eyes
    Why are you crying
    Tell me now, tell me now
    Tell me, why you’re feelin’ this way
    I hate to see you so down, oh baby
    Is it your heart
    Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces
    Makin’ you cry
    Makin’ you feel blue
    Is there anything that I can do

    Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby
    And I’ll do my best to make it better
    Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away
    Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
    And I love you with a love so tender
    Oh and if you let me stay
    I’ll love all of the hurt away


    Where are all those tears coming from
    Why are they falling
    Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
    You just need somebody to hold on, baby
    Give me a chance to put back all the pieces
    Take your broken heart
    Make it just like new
    There’s so many things that I can do

    Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby
    And I’ll do my best to make it better
    Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away
    Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
    And I love you with a love so tender
    Oh and if you let me stay
    I’ll love all of the hurt away


    Oh I’m gonna take it all away, baby
    Is it your heart
    Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces
    Makin’ you cry
    Makin’ you feel blue
    Is there anything that I can do


    Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby
    And I’ll do my best to make it better
    Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away
    Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
    And I love you with a love so tender
    Oh and if you let me stay
    I’ll love all of the hurt away


    Tell me, baby
    Tell me, oh yea
    Is there anything I can do, baby


    Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
    And I love you with a love so tender
    Oh and if you let me stay

    -------------------------------------------------------------

    All the unsaid words, i'll leave it unsaid.

    Someone will do it for you.

    Someone will be there for you when you are stucked in this situation.

    And that,

    just won't be me.

    Gonna be fine without someone like me around.

    So cold tonight, because it's coming strong at me,

    and bye all the loved ones.


    Martin.


    Date / Time : Monday, March 30, 2009 / 11:18 PM
    3 more training days to concert.

    Elephants starting to build up in my stomach.

    Pretty worried, because my steps ain't all that clean and sure yet. GOT TO SERIOUSLY CLEAN MYSELF UP TMR.

    Even though hiphop's meant to be dirty, that's not my excuse to look different from the rest. LOL.

    Today's a waste of time, too much waiting time, too little studios for cleaning up usage, the lyrical peoples were like wondering ghosts, seeking for a place to settle down and dance. Tragic.


    Oh well! Work hard all. 3 more days, and it will make a big difference if we make use of it wisely. : )


    It will be a good show.


    -----------------------------------------------------------


    It sucks, but i will do the right things.

    I'll make things right and not end up causing troubles and hurts to anyone.

    Because..

    Im just a goner at the end of the day.



    Martin.

    Date / Time : Saturday, March 28, 2009 / 11:35 PM
    To: my family, dance friends, classmates , wed crewmates, outside friends that coming to support martin,



    TPDE production starting to take shape, which is a good thing. :)

    All it left will be hardcore cleaning up to make it real tight.

    I believe it will be a good show.

    I don't feel it as strong as last year's production.

    But seems like, it will be my last.

    And my last time to show my loved one what i can do, what martin really can do for his friends, by being on stage, infest them with my love and enjoyment for dance.

    Take it with a smile friends. : )

    I will do my best!!!

    -----------------------------------------------------

    And on a side-note, the hairstylist misunderstood my description, and he cut away my back.

    Now my hairs' like concaved, -.- Good game. Now i feel like a dwarf version of Kevin.

    How to grow back in one week...Gonna go something about it somehow.

    Shopping for costume tmr. Get whatever i need, do whatever i need to do.

    And then, hardcore clean-ups,

    Showtime.

    --------------------------------------------------------------

    HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO FION! :D I hope she had a good day with her friends today celebrating the bday.

    And i definitely getting you something after the concert, when i get my allowance.

    One more year and ur soooooo joining the TYs!!! LOLS. Yeah man, i won't be so lonely falling out of the teen age.
    : )) Evil*

    -----------------------------------------------------------------

    I wonder this year, who will celebrate with me...

    Or it will just like the past years,

    letting it slip away.

    Awww man. No time for this i guess.




    God, please gives me the strength to shine. : )

    Martin.

    Date / Time : Friday, March 27, 2009 / 2:04 AM
    Where's freedom.

    Why is it so hard to even have a sneak preview of it.

    That sensation only came to me occasionally.

    Those were the time i can feel it, the flow, the meaning of those music and beats.



    It's all about my mind making a fool out of me.

    If only i can overpower them.

    No, perhaps, if i can just take them away,

    i will see freedom clearly.

    Total freedom, just me, and the music.


    ----------------------------------------------------------

    Feeling better today,

    but why am i still so restless?

    Tell me that it's not true.

    Thank you for yesterday, my lord.

    Maybe im asking for too much, but please give me some healing and direction to walk on.

    Im, so lost.

    me, your sheep. Baaaa....

    -------------------------------------------------------------

    Choreographing on the spot's kinda stressful, somemore i don't know the beats of the song well, and worried what turns out might not fit the music or others might find it hard, or simply don't like it. But i only got a few minutes to come out of it, and rewinding the song too much might piss people off.

    Just twice, 2 shots to listen to that portion , feel and go.

    Somehow it pulled off after much compromising to the rest. So i guess phewww, its a pass. : )

    I feel grateful to Gin cos she let me choreo 2 eigths of it. :D Only 2 eigths, but im happy enough.

    Arigato. : ) Though you still mixed me up with Keiths. -.-


    And CS and dota's fun with Kevin and Niger. LOLS!

    I will pwn u with shield next time.

    Tmr crew session. See you guys tmr.

    Give Ovation Crew handsign**

    Peace.

    Martin.

    Date / Time : Thursday, March 26, 2009 / 2:00 AM
    Sorry, if my emotion takes control of me, saying and doing things that might hurt/offend people.

    Deep inside, appreciated all those cares, but its just me that i cannot get out of it in time for care and concern to come.

    Thanks Jonas and Kevin. Without you both, i probably will be hiding there until the last bus, and take everything alone with me.

    I prayed under the moonlight, hoping god will listen to what i want to say, and there it is, angels appeared.

    -------------------------------------------------------



    This world can be so cold,

    and then when you fall,

    you might not see any trace of angel around you,

    but just me and the bleeding knuckles to ease the pain away.

    Am i not strong?

    When i can take shits one after another, just by staying and swallowing pain alone, it's all up to my resolve to do the magic.

    I've grown to become like that. You clear up your own shit, because no one going to catch you when you get destroyed.


    Once in a bluue moon, it is,



    too unbearable.



    and that's the time,



    i shall vanish.


    Martin.

    Date / Time : Wednesday, March 25, 2009 / 12:53 AM
    Will work harder. Thanks for the compliments by fellow dancemates and Gin. : )

    Then again, alot more to work on.

    Now im still seeking freedom and feel, and after that, it will be playing with the beats, and then finding the frequency and accents in it.

    One step at a time man, i can't rush and skip. I still got time to play around with it. KO-night around the corner, current standard, it will still be ownage by the opponents.

    And sessioning's fun today. Michael from studiowu dropped by to give us a few tips on dance and some basics on house and popping. Asked him some questions regarding hitting, oldman, walkout and freestyle, and by watching him freestyle, i got a few discoveries. Don't think he will come to my blog, but thanks a million!! Hope michael will come and session with us again when he's having his break from studiowu : )

    ---------------------------------------------------------

    Blog song changed again. Don't know, just keep changing. : ) Nevertheless, dope song.

    NE-YO - Empty Frames


    Hmmm
    I can feel the raindrops
    slowly falling
    and they calling for
    they keep calling for
    my knight in shining armour
    come and save me
    cause im drowning in pain


    ive been hurt
    by his mistakes
    so come and take me away
    i put him first
    i thought he'd stay
    but he couldn't weather the storm
    so he left me the rain


    over time, pictures fade
    all thats left are these empty frames
    sleepless nights, and stormy days
    i've got proof that people change
    and all thats left are these empty frames
    all thats left are these empty...


    can you hear these teardrops
    in my pillow
    they keep falling cause
    i kept falling for your dozen thorny roses
    now im bleeding
    and im lonely again


    now im hurt
    it's my mistake
    i should have known right away
    i put him first
    i thought he'd stay
    but he couldn't weather the storm
    so he left me the rain


    over time, pictures fade
    all thats left are these empty frames
    sleepless nights, and stormy days
    i've got proof that people change
    long after the smiles all fade away
    all this endless pain
    all this empty space


    sleepless nights, and stormy days
    i've got proof that people change
    over time, pictures fade
    and all thats left are these empty frames


    over time, pictures fade
    all thats left are these empty frames
    sleepless nights, and stormy days
    all thats left are these empty...


    over time, pictures fade
    and all thats left are these empty frames
    sleepless nights, and stormy days
    i've got proof that people change


    all thats left are these empty frames


    all thats left are these empty frames

    Date / Time : Sunday, March 22, 2009 / 11:19 PM
    沒有人 - 麥浚龍


    你怎樣看 亦像凝望我

    那種不經意 卻洩露矛盾更多
    怎可能 無聊之過
    平常稀疏 只因我心多


    你守護我 但又迴避我
    卻整天吸引著我 注意力無處去躲
    不管如何 有人如此愛我
    我亦暗裡練習 如和你告白講什麼


    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    纏綿邂逅 完全虛構
    那一刻含情回眸
    原來是我妄想裡的 那點綠洲


    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    教我緊張得心跳這麼久
    到了這一刻終於望通透
    其實愛情來過 半分鐘 也沒有


    那感情戲 並未存在過
    那小火花卻讓我 過敏地回應太多
    心急談情 自然忙中有錯
    錯在我太寂寞 隨時愛上未知什麼


    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    纏綿邂逅 完全虛構
    那一刻含情回眸
    原來是我妄想裡的 那點綠洲



    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    教我緊張得心跳這麼久
    到了這一刻終於望通透
    其實愛情來過 半分鐘 也沒有



    你說有句話難開口 很喜歡跟我成為好友
    你卻沒有 故意偷偷碰撞我的手


    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    纏綿邂逅 完全虛構
    我身邊原來無人 曾明示我
    暗戀我 很焦急 等我開口


    原來沒有 從來都沒有
    教我空歡喜心跳這麼久
    到了這一刻終於望通透
    其實愛情來過 半分鐘 也不夠

    Date / Time : / 10:58 PM
    Unsettled mind and heart.

    Im all over the place.

    Look what i've done.


    I missed church service,

    i make my friends wait,

    i make them come down for nothing,

    i realised im no where near good,

    i have so much love to show,

    so much sins to redeem.

    hurt and disappoint those that i shouldn't.

    I feel so pain and harsh to get pass the night.

    Because Martin sucks.

    ---------------------------------------------

    Pillow's my partner tonight,

    i'll hug it to vent things out with tears,

    a night to reflect.

    F*** you, martin.

    Date / Time : / 2:50 AM
    Awesome time with Zhixiang tonight, we chilled at Clarke Quay, one of the pub and drink. : ) And good things were that we's still pretty much the same. The feeling never change, no matter how long we stopped meeting.

    Guess this is the special bond i have with friends like you!! :D Will definitely treasure you! And i promised you a Taiwan trip once ur out of army. : ) I still keep the taiwan notes u gave me the other time, waiting for you to bring me there and spend it. :D

    That's, a promise man. You will always always always be the no.1 friend who walked into my life.

    And for that, i decided to change my blog song. It just express what i feel now, towards leaving this place, and missing my friends over here, promised to meet again someday.

    ------------------------------------------------------------
    Evan Yo - Wo Xiang Yao Shuo


    看着右手 被撕裂的伤口
    爱好像曾经停留
    而我左手 按下号码之后
    那酋属于我 的歌不再播送


    默写你的爱过 坦承自己脆弱
    对白怎么说 表情才不难过


    我想要说 我想要说
    如果没有了你 我该如何往下走
    那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候
    怎么劝我放手 在这一切之后


    整夜的风 冷得我手颤抖
    你在温暖的那头
    熟悉路口 再一次的路过
    等在那角落 的人已不是我默


    写你的爱过 坦承自己脆弱
    对白怎么说 表情才不难过


    我想要说 我想要说 Ho-Woo
    如果没有了你 我该如何往下走
    那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候
    怎么劝我放手 在这一切之后

    Ho-Oh-Woo
    Ho~ 我想要说 我想要说
    如果没有了你 我该如何往下走
    那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候
    怎么劝我放手 在这一切之后
    怎么劝我放手 在这一切


    I want to learn a song, so that i can sing for my friends at the airport.

    Im blessed with lovely things in my life.


    Martin.

    Date / Time : Friday, March 20, 2009 / 4:58 PM
    i hug my ipod,

    play the saddest songs to sleep.


    MIA-ed, for 3 hours.





    Martin.

    Date / Time : / 3:51 PM
    This song too emo. I think i need a new blog song. I need photos to life up this place. But since there's facebook, putting photos here's a chore.

    Can't think straight,

    issit the popper disease,

    or its just me.


    Anw, new direction for the concert, something challenging


    To be, a sexy popper.


    l...o...l...


    It's been awhile since i feel stressed for choreography.

    That time is rahim's addicted,

    and now, this.

    I can do it.


    GO ME!!

    WhooHOO!

    I feel so sadistic, but by getting punished by Foong i feel i gained something out of it. I don't find dancing choreography alone as stressful anymore, or is it just that i learn to freestyle and feel the music more.

    I wonder.

    But nevertheless, thanks for the punishment.

    LOL. And fellow dancemates that gave me encouragements along the way, means alot to me.

    --------------------------------------------------------------




    Drained.

    Oh well, it's just 5 more months,

    and then,

    it is goodbye loves.




    Martin

    Date / Time : / 5:21 AM
    Dope session today! Or should i say, dope camwhore session today.

    AH J's dope i tell you, she got props for camwhore one. LOL. Got toy dog, got carebear, got all sort of specs and other random things.

    And today's attendence! Me, Ter, Chansee, Jess, Ah J and JJ. Before that still got Karen and Liting from NRA, and then Niger joined us after his meetin! :D

    Damn fun please. HAHAA. Besides having fun, we still have some performance to settle.

    Guess it's about time to get serious too. :) And i finally met all my dancemates who's performing with me for the coming Zouk and Emerge.

    Can't wait. It's so stressed cos im practically dance-overload.

    TPDE production, Zouk, Emerge, Garage battle, Konight.

    hahas. 5 big things coming in this 2 months.

    I can do it!



    WHOOO GO ME!



    martin.

    L4D still 3am, and cabbed home. 10am training tmr.

    Seriously, WTP.

    1,

    2,

    3,

    Rest.

    -------------------------------------------------------

    If your losing me,

    then i can tell you,

    im losing the whole world.

    People says,

    One death's a tragedy, a million death's a statistic.

    Yet, it hits me hard in the head that,

    it's more of a million singular death.



    Martin.

    Date / Time : Thursday, March 19, 2009 / 1:41 PM
    I swear i replayed the song more than 50 times through the night.

    Thanks my friends for all the random sms and messages of concern,

    and the crew that got me through the night. : ))



    Love yall.

    And im off for training.

    Date / Time : / 2:07 AM
    I never understand the meaning of this song from Juno.


    But i think,


    i taste the meaning first hand tonight.


    Set me tearing away and heartbroken.


    Will get through the night, somehow.

    Date / Time : / 12:45 AM
    Sometimes, you will be someone,

    that someone,

    walking into other's life,

    and then,

    leave a footprint,

    fade off from the picture.

    ---------------------------------------------------

    I did it, again, just like that time.

    Bravo.

    Happy ending,

    but i left myself bleeding behind.


    I'll be alright,

    it's just.. a matter of time.

    ---------------------------------------------------------


    Dance to express,

    my joy,

    my love,

    and pain.




    Martin.

    Date / Time : Wednesday, March 18, 2009 / 2:03 AM
    Emo-night.

    Every night's painful.

    But you know you can only take this alone.

    I never feel this way before.

    I mean, i did. But why issit coming so strong?

    A prank from the Satan,

    or a test from god?

    Either way, i will do the right thing.

    Hide and eat it until the day im gone.

    ----------------------------------------------------------

    Sessioning was fun.

    Hell lot of people today.

    Me, Niger, Ter, Chansee, Gen, JJ, Tim, Jess, Aaron, Chewie, and some other people and friends!

    Before session,

    me and niger were like having a PSP session, playing Monster hunter 2G. damn fun! bwahhahaas. Never defeated a Congolala before, though im just watching the fight from a distance, and rush in to tickle it with my noob weapon.

    Feel encouraged because my hardwork finally being seen. But i know i still got a long way to go. Still, it means alot to me. Thanks guys. : )))) Will work hard, and learn to express myself through the dance.

    -----------------------------------------------------------------

    On the way down for session,

    i met this old man on the train,

    He is blind.

    he was like banging into things and lost feel of the surrounding,

    One of the kind soul approached the uncle and offered him his own seat,

    i overheard the convo, and he's going to alight at Dhoby Ghaut and switch over to the red line.

    Where the fuck's his kids man? I can't believe they can let someone who can't see at all do something like this.

    Im kinda worried.


    When he alight, i just walk behind him,

    expecting that there's always another kind soul that will guide him along.

    But...

    No one's helping.

    He's struggling.

    Everyone just leave him there, poking his way to find the escalater..

    Ouch* that sucks. To him, the dark, cold unloved world of his.

    If no one wants to give him some love, make his day,

    maybe today, i'll do it, i'll be the one giving him his daily portion of love.

    -----------------------------------------------------------

    I'll be the one who held his hand tightly,

    i'll be the one who walked through it with him.

    i'll be the one who sent him straight to the next train,

    And i'll be the one who received his gratitude, his tears and the honor to exchange for that smile on his wrinkled face.



    Dance in the rain,
    TO BE CONTINUED.

    Date / Time : Tuesday, March 17, 2009 / 1:00 PM
    I removed alot of links, like 20 over.

    Those that disappeared, and drifted away totally.

    When we start talking again, and build a new bond, i'll put the link back on again.

    Go-me.

    But it's best to leave it as it is.

    根本最好就是忘我
    別再笨 別再傻
    半支煙勝過殘破的天國


    Martin.

    Date / Time : / 12:12 PM
    Juno Mak

    借火


    剛剛要去便利店裡 為著香煙無人點火
    湊巧你正走出路上 搖搖盪盪
    明明喊過不借得太多 也想借點火
    就算不說一句都很清楚 雙方都經過太多


    只要接近 別無期望
    夜了看電視的光
    只要我們不問為何 然後直至忘記誰是我
    一起靜靜的過
    不需要太認識我


    不渴望
    你不要令我多幾多渴望
    你只要為我點一點火
    然後讓我
    此刻至少可度過
    我可以令你差不多有快樂
    我可以為你點一點火
    然後望你輪廓
    不講甚麼悲壯 不想甚麼沮喪
    煙圈悄悄墜落
    煙灰至少將心事証明燃燒過


    天天要看琉璃鏡裡 為著不想重頭愛過
    湊巧你也彷彿活著 尋尋覓覓 靈魂碎過
    不借得太多 也想借點火
    就算不說一句都很清楚 雙方都經過太多


    只要接近 別無期望餓了喝外賣的湯
    只要我們不用話語
    感覺是你和我
    一起靜靜的過
    不需要太認識我


    不渴望你
    不要令我多幾多渴望
    你只要為我點一點火
    然後讓我
    倦了倦了就如煙照樣浮過 飄過
    根本最好就是忘我
    別再笨 別再傻
    半支煙勝過殘破的天國


    可以令你差不多有快樂
    我可以令你差不多傷疤會脫落
    我可以為你點一點火
    然後伴我
    亂了亂了就如絲 最好燒過 燒過
    根本只要煙圈在面前轉過
    就會忘我
    不講甚麼好結果
    不想甚麼沮喪
    煙圈悄悄墜落
    煙灰至少將心事証明燃燒過


    煙花太過寂寞
    煙絲至少可等待別人來點火

    Date / Time : / 11:46 AM
    Don't do this to me, satan. :'(

    You are killing me.


    Show me the right way to go, my lord.



    I will do the right thing.





    Why am i feeling this way?

    I don't understand anymore.




    Martin.

    Date / Time : Sunday, March 15, 2009 / 11:53 AM
    What's dance to me?



    I wonder.



    It just take one new direction, a curse to end my dance journey.



    I should just be a businessman, a marketing manager or something.


    Work 10 hours a day, stable income and took the path like my dad.



    Forming a boyband, being a dope dancer, i don't know,


    it's just too dreamy for me, no matter how much i want it.


    I don't mind challenges, i don't mind poverty,


    but i definitely don't want to see my family suffer because of me.


    I'll just enjoy and love dance, go as far as i can,

    until the day comes, when it finally come to me, hit me hard.

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    We are like talking about our future job when we having our dinner at Mac yesterday. All of them had already a path to follow.

    It's just me....sigh..

    Why do i end up like that?

    I feel so discouraged, i feel so lost,

    i feel so insecured on the way back riding a 2 hours bus-ride.



    F**k migration, it screws up my studies totally.

    Even my cousins were gong to university now, and im still stucked with a incompleted diploma, and going to start all over again in some college.


    I'll probably be my brother's classmate next time. What a joke. But what can i do?


    Why am i always the one forced to take things the hard way, giving up every parts of my life for this kind of shit?


    It just take the migration to kick in before i lose everything dear to me.



    You have no idea how painful it is,

    It is just not as cool as most people think.

    In fact,

    it sucks.

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    lol..And its not that i don't want to form a boyband actually. I tried. And very long time back he offered me a chance, but i gave up, because i know there's a time-bomb waiting for me.

    Boom. Gratz.

    You just killed everyone and you are the only survivor.




    Grrrr...a post to vent...ignore me.



    Martin.

    Date / Time : Saturday, March 14, 2009 / 1:52 AM
    'Coming Soon' 's a super sick movie.

    Sick in a sense that it's not disgusting, but a really dope horror!!

    Can be compared to classics like 'the Ring' please.

    But thanks to the show, another sleepless night.

    Good luck to my training tmr.

    Again, it's 10am.

    Im starting to get drained from dance all over again.

    So little time, yet so much to work on.

    I'm no where near good.

    My popping doesn't look like popping,

    my hiphop doesn't look like hiphop,

    my moves get restricted because of various reasons.

    As time goes, i find it harder and harder to feel and enjoy the music,

    to find the freedom of dance in me.

    Well, maybe im just stressed and too focus on improving but the fact is, im not moving higher.

    Take it easy, Martin.

    Dance, smile, and feel the music once again.

    Don't let the external factors hinder you.

    Please go back to my own world, IN MY OWN WORLD : )
    --------------------------------------------------------------


    Sometimes, i feel, i really need a slap.

    And im falling deeper and deeper into this feeling.

    The truth is,

    Nothing is possible for me anymore.

    There's alot of things i want to say,

    there's alot of love i want to show,

    but at the back of my head,

    it says,

    it's just not for you.

    Time to let go,

    time to let people forget about your existence,

    and it will be less painful for everyone when letting insignificant me go.



    Disappear, gone with the wind.

    I will take the pain away.

    It will be a painless farewell for yall.






    To those i loved, those i cared, those who i fell for,

    those who completed my life.






    don't ever cry for me,
    Martin.

    Date / Time : Tuesday, March 10, 2009 / 11:34 PM

    That day...

    I saw an old uncle at the MRT selling Tissue Paper.

    Observed him for one hour while waiting for Fatin.

    Respect.. Every single time, every single wave of pedestrians crossing over the road, he will stand up, hold the tissue with both hands, showing his ulmost sincerity in selling the tissues to any passers-by under the hot son.

    I could tell that he got difficulties standing for long hours. Yet he still forced himself to do so. And on an average of 30 minutes, he will only get around 1 or 2 customers. All he had with him was this folded chair, and a bottle of half-drank mineral water, lasting him for the day. He doesn't even want to waste the leftover water, because hes drinking it so sparingly, to a point he drink the water i can't even tell the water level goes down.

    LOOK I KNOW IM RETADED OBSERVING UNTIL THIS EXTENT...But but...

    At that moment, i just feel that he is the man. He don't care about what other people think of him, and he probably doing this for the sake of the family suffering from poverty. The uncle seem so desperate, he just keep repeating his rountine time and time again, and everytime no one approach him, he will sigh and sit down, preparing for the next batch of pedestrians to cross over.

    I feel so sour inside,

    i wish my 2 bucks can bring more than just a moment of joy and laughter for him,

    i wish i won't see another old folks or disabled selling tissue papers on the street,

    I wish i can do something more,

    I wish to grow up to be a great person who can impact someone positively, who can make the world a better place.

    ----------------------------------------------------

    Never forget the reasons why i started dancing:

    Not only to do my friends and family proud,

    more than just self-pleasure and passion,

    But to express the music and bring joy to people : )

    My life,
    TO BE CONTINUED.


    Date / Time : Saturday, March 07, 2009 / 11:43 PM
    Yesterday's freaking pissing. GGGRRRRRRR!!!...



    You know..I've been dancing while running a fever for the past few days,

    and it gotten worst on Saturday,So i decided to rest first,

    and then go for the second-half of the training in TP Studio.

    BUT! I already got a bad feeling there might be last minute changes in venue, so i tried to called some of my dance friends to double-check. No one pick up. Lol....

    Pray: "GOT PPL! GOT PPL! SHLD HAV PPL ONE!".......

    When i got there, the studio's empty!

    HUNGRY,SWEAT, SICK, FRUSTRATED.

    When someone finally picked up, they said training ended already. WTP!

    I cabbed down 14 bucks just to go TP eat a vending Machine Toast. WTF!



    At the bus-stop,

    WTP again! I forgot to bring my housekey. GRRRRRR!!!

    I feel like punching the bus-stop pole. RAAAHHH!

    All the retribution of me being too blur.

    Flipping through pages of contact list, trying to get someone to take me in for the day.

    And May saved my day!

    ----------------------------------------------------------

    Thank god May, Yanti, Fatin and Amelia took me in.

    I went steamboat with them. LOL. Like damn random.

    The mini-gathering's like sooo DBSK theme. DBSK music, movie, poker cards, topics, its all about Korean Boyband.

    And watched 2 damn boring and lame horror movies at night, before i knock out while they watch Step up 2 at ard 4am.

    And Fatin house's like Sauna. Cannot sleep at night one! AAAHHH!!


    In the middle of the night, i woke up, just to find myself 4 super unglam sleepers. May seriously the worst, sleep damn unglam. Like cui to the max kind. HAHAHAHA! I should have taken a photo and post on Facebook. lol.

    But thanks! It was FUN and RANDOM. Damn long never hang out with yall already : D


    LOVE YOU ALL BIG BIG. : )



    martin.

    Date / Time : Sunday, March 01, 2009 / 1:48 AM
    Clubbed at Phuture last night. It was HORRIBLE. I swear i won't go there again.


    me, Kevin, Ter, Nigel and Jess went, with some of Nigel and Jess's friends.

    Unfortunately, it was having an event, and we waited for like 1.5 hour outside the club just to try getting ourselves in. Then after gettin in, another one hour of waiting time to settle the bag-deposit.

    By the time we settled everything, i think it was like around 2am already. Everyone damn sian, damn no mood for it already.

    And i swear it is not a place to dance. Freaking SMALL, PACKED, only got sufficient space to stand around. And seeing people around me bua-ing each other. GGrrrr.. Guess i can't blame them, it is a club afterall, people generally came here, for THAT purpose.

    While we dancers were the minority, who wants to seek freedom and enjoy dance.

    For me, i want to find a place that can free my mind to train freestyle.


    Er er, wrong place. Thank god Mervin never come. HAHA. He needs the rest for his production tmr anyway. All da best bro. : )

    -----------------------------------------------------------

    Quest Crew's dope ah. i watched the last episode already. Jawdrop.

    Bravo for both perf.

    The most touching thing i see in them, is the way they enjoy dance and love each others company. It is a REAL crew, one for all, all for one. :D Admirable. Just like a....

    family perhaps :)

    And BeatFreaks they are damn strong in whatever they do, but i still can see the individualism in them.

    SOOOO,

    Definitely Quest-Crew for me.

    -------------------------------------------------------

    Went for cell-group today. FIRST TIME went for the Saturday one. It's a much smaller group, but nevertheless, i like Kenny's message to us. :)

    The 5 level of communication. i'll keep that in mind!


    L4D with Kyle and JJ to end off the day.

    Early service tmr. And then going for Rahim's class at Music Garage.

    ------------------------------------------------------

    I guess im doing fine.




    Martin.