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DANCEwithme Your Funky Ultra-Boy
Martin Shin
 ★ Music INSPIRES dance & dance BEFORE style ★ 26th December 1988 Queens, NewYork Nassau College Business major Dancer B.I.Crew X Ovation Crew X TPDE X Marvel Crew dance obsessively, excessively. "Always always always...Keep it real But never too quick to judge, my friend." Music inspires dance Do you feel me?
 Calender 2010
keep me going
 Sept 5 - StonyBrook Visit Sept 19 - Observation night Sept 29 - Mothership Funknight 3 Oct XX - King of NY TAGBOARD
let me hear you.
 AFFILIATES
endless connections.
 J.Crosses Goodloving Martin&Crosses AH TER SpringMelon KevinDoodlepants Gen mom Chansee Allycia Jessica Ah J Veronica Nai ma Jonas Black Tie Keiths poppin twin Audrey Ayozi Niger bra Nelson Lokto Wailam L Zhixiang buddyforlife Peiru da jie Yong kogepan Gangyi bro Alicia ma-ma joey nu-er May sis Liting Kupo Fion Quack Suriaaa Amberlene 'Smoker' Rinna Rimmers Iman Nathaniel Ming Amelia Gary Yanti Melissa(xiaoxin) LeVon Serene Pearl Emili Darryl REMINISCENES
my faded memories.
 CREDITS
spontaneous applauds
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Date / Time : Thursday, April 30, 2009 / 12:45 AM  why.................... 总是被打败.... :'( ------------------------------- 霎时间失去感觉的自己, 想克服一切, 找回所失去的感觉, 还是勇敢放手豁出去了. 可是为什么... 很多时候, 还是难免会又再跌得更深, 连基本的自信都没了. --------------------------------------- 好失败... 好懦弱... 好迷茫... 好害怕... 不知道还能不能像平时一样, 自己爬起来. ------------------------------------- 原来, 我已经忘记怎样跳舞, 怎样再找动力站起来. Sucha ****ing failure. Frustrated. martin. Date / Time : Wednesday, April 29, 2009 / 3:20 PM  Nearly overslept for my tutorial. And here i am, in the library taking a short break. Projects starting to pile up, and very soon, it will get real busy for schoolwork. For now, i'll get my focus right. And i still have a sense of redemption in me for the night later. let's do this, Black Tie, Lost N Found, Keiths and Ian, Audrey and Niger!! : )) P.S. Damn, im feeling kinda lazybody now after a long day in school doing work. Grrr. It's not a physical contraint, just a mindset away to get back to where i stop. ----------------------------------------------------- make things right for me, lord. and for everyone else that i cared for too. Martin. Date / Time : Tuesday, April 28, 2009 / 2:26 AM Lost feel. But i will get it back. GO, SpermDragon! martin. : ) walk away. Date / Time : Saturday, April 25, 2009 / 2:28 AM  Evan Yo - 两人 呼吸很輕 寂寞很深 世界只剩 漸漸變弱的雨聲 2人沉默著 你不肯說 我不肯問 你的眼睛 突出了透明的話 突然 我發現你的臉好陌生 明明是兩個不同的角色 愛情卻给我們一個腳本 你要的不在我這 我懂你不懂的 2人在互相拔河 明明是再多不同的可能 結局卻给我們一種選擇 要分開卻捨不得 2人彼此都忘了 要什麼 呼吸很輕 寂寞很深 世界只剩 漸漸變弱的雨聲 ２人 沉沒著 你不肯說 我不肯問 你的眼睛 突出了透明的話 突然 我發現你的臉好陌生 明明是兩個不同的角色 愛情卻給我們一個腳本 你要的不在我這 我懂你不懂的 ２人在互相拔河 明明是再多不同的可能 結局卻給我們一種選擇 要分開卻捨不得 ２人是不一樣的 我走了 ----------------------------------------------------------- 好累的一场拔河, 原来也差不多走到尽头了.... 到了最后, 大概也没几个人理解.... 这....不正是我想要的吗? 为什么我还发现自己偷偷停留在原地, 回头盼望着你的影子, 留下一些思念的轨迹. 好无畏,好不应该, 偏偏却无法自拔. 感情用事下去, 只会令别人觉得不安, 带来困扰. 我很佩服某童话故事里的主角, 他不懂的说话,不能表达. :') 为了保护某些心爱的东西, 他可以受尽人们的眼色与误会, 时间思念的煎熬, 也不需要得到任何回报,不需要心爱的东西的察觉与认同. 一直, 都是上帝暗中给我的启示. 可是,当我写下这一些. 我知道, 这一秒我已经输了. 果然, 我没有他那么厉害. 原来偷偷的喜欢, 终于也到了偷偷放手的时候了. :') Martin. Date / Time : Friday, April 24, 2009 / 8:51 PM Insecurity sucks. And i found myself still sleeping, hiding in the blanket at a time like this. I skipped school, locked myself up in my own box. Im stubborn, I won't let anyone in. I will find my own light, that's me. Martin. Date / Time : / 2:52 PM  Im human afterall. Im sorry, that i can't.... take away.... My subconscious charades. Martin. Date / Time : / 12:07 AM  Off-form. The resolve's just one step away, But i can't get pass myself. FUCK. Im making this right. So stop indudging in self-pity over it. Just....leave. And go. ---------------------------------------------------- I love, but i don't want, because i really do loved. I know its just me, alone all along, it's time to walk out, rewind way back the starting point, it's just a dream afterall. P.S. i am attached, to my backpack. Be proud of me, and i should be glad, that i actually practice being selfless. Why not present me a nobel prize, because i think i deserve it for what i put myself through. :') I can't deny, that girl in six swans, still trash me when it comes to this. Truly...admirable. And i can't deny, it hurts. But i'll do it. That's god decision for me. The Untouchable that people won't want to get near, Martin Date / Time : Thursday, April 23, 2009 / 2:48 AM  Ovation just leveled up today. :DDDDDD And everyone's so determined to express. Im soooooo happy for myself, and the crew. I've been desperately searching for freedom in dance, And never ever able to catch it. But today, i got a better sight of it, after getting advices from several dancers. : ))) It really helps me a great load. And i realised, sometimes, a breakthrough, the difference between a alright dancer, and a good dancer, is just one mindset away. It's just how much you want to express. And i dance, for myself. For now, i got to keep this state of mind a constant in me, before moving to the next step. Don't want to lose it. i just want to dance, and express. --------------------------------------------------------------- AnAn class's dope for me this week! I learnt more grooves variations! And i finally met AH J!! THE BLACK SEXYDIAMOND BACKPACK CREWMATE!! WHOOHOO!! She promised me to switch backpack to wear to school. YAY! SO NOW I CAN HAVE THE BLACK ONE TOO :DDDD Ben's as retarded as usual. GRRR. HAAA. He 'shing' me again, i gonna call him 'Ben DAN REN', cos hes Ben the man. HAHAHA. : ))) ----------------------------------------------------------------- Cabbed back with Kupo and Fion. A very interesting cabbing experience. LOLS. It's a series of unfortunate event. First was the tyre stucked with a tree branch, and then's a fallen tree blocking the road, and the uncle went the wrong directions a few time. THE BEST PART FOR ME'S AFTER ALL THIS SHIT, BY THE TIME I REACHED PASIR RIS, NO MORE BUS. SO I JUS CABBED FOR NOTHIN' AND I GOT TO CAB AGAIN!!! Bwaaaa. But...hmmm.. nvm. the confused boy who wants to be even stronger, Martin. Date / Time : Wednesday, April 22, 2009 / 5:23 AM 
Date / Time : / 2:30 AM  WHAT THE FUNK!!! Quite a fulfilling for me. Went over to Ter's house to play Wii with Niger.  MY FIRST WII EXPERIENCE, and it's freaking high until we sweat like three mad dogs. YALL KNOW? YOU CAN USE WII TO TRAIN POPPING. After the whole thing, my hand muscle's practically numbed, could hardly feel my hits. :X BATTLED MY 'NO LONGER KO-NIGHT PARTNER' TERRENCESPRINGMELON A GAME OF BOXING. IT'S SUPER RETARDED. We keep knocking each other down and it just go on and on and on, until, he tyco-ly won martinshinigami by just ONE bar of life. There's the footage of it on Facebook. You can dropby my facebook page to take a look. LOL. P.S. im not like that normally. : PP Just for once, go all out, TO REVENGE. : ) -------------------------------------------------------------- Sessioned at SMU. Usual peeps luh. Me, Ter, Niger, Kevin, Chansee, Keiths and Ian. It was great! At least, we are more disciplined, and i definitely learnt something new today. : )))) Keep this going, and we will grow even more as a team. P.S. Keiths' middle finger to say bye, was classic. AND CREW-TEE TMR FOR ANAN CLASS. DOMINATE WITH SUPERHEROS AND VILLAINS. :D  And sexy diamond Bros' total dopeshit. : ))
One day, when you look back to things that ever made you emo, you gonna laugh at how silly you actually were.
Date / Time : Monday, April 20, 2009 / 11:58 PM 
Date / Time : / 8:25 PM  Guys, this gonna be SUPER SHOCKING, BUT THE FACT IS, I GOT DUMPED BY TERRENCESPRINGMELON FOR KONIGHT, HES JOINING WITH KEVINDOODLEPANTS INSTEAD, COS HE FEELS INSECURE, SO HE NEEDS A TALLER GAY PARTNER. :P AND!!! IM ATTACHED. BEHOLD, MY NEW GIRLFRIEND!  Chio not!? MY BABY! THE RED HOT SEXY DIAMOND BACKPACK!! :DD So pretty, and it sits next to me during lecture. Sweet horr? ------------------------------------------------------------------  Anyway, back to school and its day 1 of my year 3 life. Pretty normal, and i feel so confident with my baby on my back. HAHAHA.
And my stupid mom Gen took a photo of me not paying attention to lecture, busy sms-ing away.
----------------------------------------------------------------- After class, met up with my Sexy Diamond Bro, Nic. WHOOHOO. : P Not a bad day to start off a new semester i supposed. : ))) Two weeks of Poverty!! And KO-night, here i come. Gotta be harder, better, faster, stronger Martin. Date / Time : / 2:20 AM  Emo posts make people puke. I bet by the end of this month, no one will be here anymore. Im disgusted by myself. Bad day for me. I finally, did registered for the Toefl exam. So please, stop all the nagging and lectures on me. Don't judge, because you don't even know me anymore. What i want, what i need, how i feel, you have got no clue, NONE. Im sorry, but, it's just me, as imperfect as it seems to be. --------------------------------------------------------- Came down for session, and because of the above issue, i can only make it for the cyphering. That's probably the only positive thing about today. Niger, Andy, Jean, Ah Lee, PangYang, me, keiths and Ian. I got a grasp of how it feels, when you explode, stay calm to feel, and just dance. Here, got to thanks Ian and Fong : ) Its by talkin to yall, that makes me have the correct mindset to free myself. :D Owe yall one. It feels, damn good. And i never know, i actually said this. 'One more round.'  Got this backpack from Kevin and i love you bro! WHOOHOOO. REALLY REALLY. But feel bad cos' its niger's money and i can't pay back unless i collect all my debt. PAY BACK THIS WEEK IF I CAN GET THEM ALL BACK OK!? IF NOT, FIRST DAY OF MAY, DEFINITELY. YOU HAVE MY WORDS. : )))) -------------------------------------------------------------- I wanted you - Ina Lately I've been thinking about what I can do Date / Time : Sunday, April 19, 2009 / 1:49 PM 
OH SHHHIIIITT..
And Dream Part 2....
Last night - Ovation Night Cycling  A 3-man outing. HAHAHA.But still, it was damn fun!! And i mastered cycling in less than one minute. No major crash throughout the whole experience. Which is DOPE, IM DOPE. : D Stupid Niger and Chansee purposely twirl around the small path and grass to make life difficult for me, and stop shooting the stupid water from that tube. GGRRR. Serve Niger for crashing because he tried to bang into CS. HAHA. NOOBSHIT. We cycled to quite a few spots in ECP, stopping over at the jetty to see fisherman's catch, talking rubbish while star gazing. Had our dinner at mac, and that wrapped up the mini outing.  I realised, last night, after we got home, all of us got our own problems to deal with. isn't it a crew thing, that we linked to each other? :)) Love's confusing no? But that's the beauty of it i guess. Martin. Date / Time : / 1:35 AM  To ya, Love, doesn't always come with a reward. If it hurts bad, im just a pm/call/sms away. Nevertheless, im proud of someone like you. Who speak up for yourself. You are the man. : ))) I totally get burnt in this area. HAA. Smiles.** Martin. Date / Time : / 12:59 AM  So tired, living up to everyone's expectations. What about being myself, having my own needs. And when i break free to breath some fresh air, there's bound to be consequences waiting for me. Like now. Will yall be the ones bring me down, or pull me together. Im too drained to care for anything, living under people's shadow. My way, Martin. Date / Time : Friday, April 17, 2009 / 7:34 PM  Very sick in the morning! Didn't made it for Class chalet last night, and Week zero today. Probably i lacked sleep/rest or something for the past few days. And now, missed cg again. Though im down with fever, I felt the guilt hits me strong when i dreamt of a friend, that i disappointed alot when i never go for the class outing. That sets me emo through the day Supposed to be a emo post. BUT. Thanks a few frens for their sweet smses and concerns( Cs, kupo, gerger) , and niger's DOG. HAHAA. It kinda make my day when i heard stupid Niger starts talking to his dog when im on the phone with him. Damn LOL.       So at late night, finally decided to catch a show with the crew and some Lion City lockers. It was dope, the company and the show ' back to 17'. The scene at the court when Zac read the letter to his wife, probably the most touching part of the show for me. Talk about protecting and fading out of the picture. I felt it strong. -------------------------------------------------------------- God, are you trying to tell me something? Martin. Date / Time : / 12:06 AM  Today was alright luh. Just that im feeling more to the emo side, rather than being positive. Went Week Zero Orientation today! And i kinda love 1B08!! Especially for Battle of the sexes, they are damn ON. : )))) LingYu's right. we can do a better job. But bwaaa, did what i could, trying to hide my depression, and those fatigue in me, because i never sleep at all the previous night. Without fail, i got sabo-ed in orientation camp AGAIN this year to dance. and they seemed satisfied with my anyhow freestyle. Ok la, i dunno what i did, but they told me it's dope. They like can already. LOL. But that is definitely not enough for a real battle. Ovation Crew, cypher soon. im hungry, to dance. Oh and there's a few freshies seem interested in learning dance. Maybe i will jus bring them over to Ovation session someday to get them to know more about dance. Spread the love, for dance. Did it for love passion. ----------------------------------------------------- I sat on the track, just to realize im hungry for something else. But it seems so far away. and then, it got closer again. You think it's fun, satan? P.S I think Kupo's CRAZY today. Talking about random things. That's what happened when people overwork i supposed. HAA. Martin. Date / Time : Thursday, April 16, 2009 / 2:37 AM  Sorry guys. I privated my blog for a day. Used it for vanting my emotion. i deleted them. And now, if im doing a happy post, i will use this!! And if its sad, i will use the other one. Pretty cool! HUH HUH HUH. ------------------------------------------------------------- Well, I am not exactly happy emotionally. BUT. I feel glad that Ovation takes on a new transformation. Finally, there will be more serious sessioning. : )) haa, i feel that we lacked organisation. Hope next session will be even better than today's session. Can't wait. let's do this guys. WE MUST WIN THE ANTI-SMOKING COMPETITION. And and, the SuperHero Crew Tees' dopeShit. HAHAA. im glad they feel good wearing it. Btw, AnAn's class dope, and group 2 totally get burnt. LOL. Stupid Ben, Ovation and those dancefrens there, go make fun of me, i feel so malu in the studio. RAAAH. hahaha. ---------------------------------------------------- I feel kinda empty today though. love this line by Ming. 'Sometimes I touch the things you used to touch, looking for echoes of your fingers..' How true. P.S SUPERHEROS AND VILLAINS CREW SHIRTS PWNS. Martin. Date / Time : Wednesday, April 15, 2009 / 1:10 PM  Qi dai ni de ai - JJ Lin My Life 一直在等待 空荡的口袋 想在里面放 一份爱 Why 总是被打败 真的好无奈 其实我 实实在在 不管帅不帅 想要找回来 自己的节拍 所以这一次 我要勇敢 大声说出来 期待 期待你发现我的爱 无所不在 我自然而然的关怀 你的存在 心灵感应的方向 我一眼就看出来 是因为爱 我猜 你早已发现我的爱 绕几个弯 越靠近越明白 不要走开 幸福的开始 就是放手去爱 想要找回来 自己的节拍 所以这一次 我要勇敢 大声说出来 期待 期待你发现我的爱 无所不在 我自然而然的关怀 你的存在 心灵感应的方向 我一眼就看出来 是因为爱 我猜 你早已发现我的爱 绕几个弯 越靠近越明白 不要走开 幸福的开始 就是放手去爱 幸福的开始 就是放手去爱 Date / Time : / 12:53 AM  God shows me the opposite today. Is this your real words to martin? Then who's been guiding me the past few days? Demon? Don't toy with my feeling, because when i fall, it doubles the hurt. Now im back to the initial path, im giving up. im leaving. The most tragic ending for me, but best for all, that's final. Im officially defeated, it's time to find a way out of my dream. I had enough getting caught in the middle, running back and forth to a world of doom. ------------------------------------------------------- It sucks, but im cursed. Martin Date / Time : Tuesday, April 14, 2009 / 1:04 PM  Oh shit. Aircon at 19 degrees. I should have sleep with something on. Now, Martin having a very bad runny nose and the feverish sensation. The ulcer hurts like MAD. GGGAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Irritating morning. GGRRR. Very grumpy. ------------------------------------------------------- Last night me Kevin and JJ went to airport earlier to visit Kupo, who's been sick and starved, working OT. : ( Can't help much luh, but at least you know someone's around somewhere watching your back. : ) And we were having fun there ourselves, playing dance videos, watched 'I am Legend. Don't need to feel bad about it or what. Heh. JJ owns me one man!! I carried the PS2 all the way down to the airport, with all the souvenirs so you guys can choose. Cabbed down somemmore. Respect to Martin. Self-dope* And I think they like the Tees i bought for them. LOL, which is something nice to know!! : ) Thank you for staying till 6am with me guys. Appreciated. BBWWAA. see yall later in session! ----------------------------------------------------------------- Well, i don't know why, i can never meet up with your expectations. It seems like im always doing the wrong thing, and your judging me, criticizing me on a daily basis. I'm not perfect, can you accept me better? There's thing i can't help but stay the same, because it's just part of me, even though it's bad habit and all. I wonder, What, makes me so unbeautiful to you. Is it because, i didn't grow up to be the someone like how you expected me to be. Nevertheless, still love you load. And reduce on those smoking. The ^5 thing's random. Never expect you would want to do that with me like that. Haa. Take good care, and come back soon, dad. Martin. Date / Time : Monday, April 13, 2009 / 6:42 PM 
So i'll just leave it open as it is. Secrets, i will bury it somewhere else. Nobody knows. Only me and you lord. And goodbye to daddy. Come again : ) We love you. ------------------------------------------------------ You kou, nan yan. Martin. Date / Time : / 1:24 PM  Don't think too much Martin. Its bad for you. it's time to escape from that little fantasy world of your own. Ouch. ouch... ouch. Martin. Date / Time : / 5:08 AM  5am now. Just bathed, and im back in Singapore. Like, finally. : ))) Yesterday's a nightmare for martin. ------------------------------------------------------------- Pouring heavily since the afternoon, and obviously my dad don't give much shit abit it, and continue to play at the theme park, Sunway Lagoon. It was alright luh...minus the raining part. The pirate ship and Tomahawk quite dope, love the feeling hanging upside down, was wondering whether it will fall back, or make a 360 turn. LOLS. Can see they enjoyed themselves. : )) I DO TOO. Just that...im not into water games la. hahaha. Been in this wet clothes of mine for the whole day. FEEL SUPER SELF-CONSCIOUS because it's uncomfortable and i think im smelling like fish. Only positive thing i want to comment's the coach. So much better than the one we came with! Comfy seats and personal TV, with quite some decent movies. --------------------------------------------------------- Genting/KL trips ended here. and my dad's still the same old dad we knew. He's still direct with words, as sly as a fox, and don't follow rules. I guess, it's good? : ))) Just don't like the part where you always think im a naive little boy who always get used by people. I just...can't agree with your business mindset in viewing people and life. i still believe, communication's based on, heart, to, heart. ---------------------------------------------------------------- Your random sarcasm's hurting, but it's just part of you. martin. Date / Time : Sunday, April 12, 2009 / 10:52 AM Just had my breakfast for the day. Awesome shit, and im preparing to go out very soon, to some water theme park. Don't really like the idea of going there though, Running a flu now, and very very tired. Oh well, i shouldn't spoil the fun for others. I should just go, and make it happens. ------------------------------------------------------ Seriously, i think i REALLY REALLY want to private my blog, because i feel so constrainted, and martin's not speaking his mind, because there's emotions, side of me, comments that i don't want others to know. Believe me, im not gonna bitch/gossip about anyone. Just....want to find a medium to express myself freely. Soon...perhaps... It will be privated, in a few days time. Martin. Date / Time : / 2:33 AM  I like this photo.because when im emo, when im reflecting, this is what i do best. Lie on the bed, let my mind go wild abit, Let those painful thoughts hit me at once, and when the tears gone, im okay, and prepared to be a better man. -------------------------------------------------------- Martin got no right in whatever he's feeling now. GRRRR. Snap out of it already. im done for the day. Night all. Just if i can be as noble as someone. And i should be. Martin. Date / Time : / 12:38 AM  Good thing about KL! THE CONNECTION FREAKING AWESOME!! AND IT'S RIGHT INSIDE MY ROOM. 20 bucks for 24 hours. Take that Ter, urs' 12 bucks per hour. HAHAHAHA.  You got problem with me camwhore, u can click to leave. HAHAHA, i very long never take photo already. BWAHAHAHA. ----------------------------------------------------------   With dope dad.For the bad thing....it's freaking dirty. I can't stand it, especially when there's rain, everywhere's in a mess, the people seems much complicated here, i can't help but increase my awareness when dealing with this people. But shopping's good though! I got something for the crew and some of the Juniors! AWESOME STUFFS! Show u guys when i get back. : ) It's a series of dope crew identity!  Nothing much today though. Window shopped alot, and got isolated alot as well. They probably think im mentally retarded, jerking my body everywhere. OH WELL. What's new for martin. Im not afraid of how people judge me. They won't even remember the next morning anyway.  Food's awesome. : ))) I think ive been eating crap in Genting.------------------------------------------------------------------ God, are you trying to let me have my own say for my path? What you want me to do, what can i do, even if you expand my life left here. I wonder, if this is god's doing? or satan's prank. This is April afterall. Martin. Date / Time : Saturday, April 11, 2009 / 1:59 AM  Damn random. Can't login for nuts. and im not giving up. Stubborn me, always trying too hard. martin. Date / Time : / 12:20 AM Photos PHOTOS!!! bwahahas. On Genting.  : (((         The Go Kart moment!     I got 2nd! : ( lost by abit. ------------------------------------------------------------------- One day over, and it wrapped up my Genting trip. Been great, i feel more bonded with my family now, after all the things we been through. Like erm, i don't know, i realised me and my dad, there's alot of ways we are very similar. Im really like a mini-him. Our laughter, our rebellious nature against mom, and those child-like moment we shared, those simplicity in life that brings joy to us. Got this video i think mommy captured me and dad playing pirate ship, and we were like standing up, hands up in the air. Mom's like shouting from afar: OOOOIII. Dangerous! Don't do that. And then me and dad will give her the who cares attitude. LOL. And then we'll make fun of Sam because she got this female classmate who's in Genting too. BWAA. Lots more. Peeping at girls, sharing taste of girls. I don't know. :) I simply love it, cherish the whole genting thing alot, cos i don't really have the luxury of having him around me all the time. AND IM GLAD THAT HE STILL GOT ALOT OF HAIR! AND ITS BLACK :DDDD ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Now's 12+am at night, my mom and dad went to Casino, Sam's stucked in hotel room mugging for his papers. Here, i am, in starbucks again, chilling alone with my usual chocolate cream chip... Can't go online for nuts, the connection here can make me puke out blood. But im contented. AT LEAST I GET TO BLOG. ----------------------------------------------------------------- And im still guilty of causing my friends misery because of my mischief self. Really really reallly reallly soorrrry guys. Promise yall one thing. If i go, i will at least, tell yall. I won't be so silly to vanish just like that. Just one last look, one last good look at all of you, i'll remember all your scents, all your faces, all your love. KL tmr to the Shing Family, Martin. |
Revenge. GRRR. CAUGHT EATING SWEETS.
