26th December 1988 HongKong Singapore
Queens, NewYork Temasek Polytechnic
Nassau College
Business major
Dancer
B.I.Crew X Ovation Crew X TPDE X Marvel Crew
dance obsessively, excessively.
"Always always always...Keep it real But never too quick to judge, my friend."
Sept 1 - School Reopens
Sept 5 - StonyBrook Visit
Sept 6 - Hangout with poppers
Sept 14 - One year
Sept 19 - Observation night
Sept 29 - Mothership Funknight 3
Oct XX - King of NY
I love, but i don't want, because i really do loved.
I know its just me, alone all along,
it's time to walk out, rewind way back the starting point,
it's just a dream afterall.
P.S. i am attached,
to my backpack.
Be proud of me, and i should be glad, that i actually practice being selfless. Why not present me a nobel prize, because i think i deserve it for what i put myself through. :')
I can't deny, that girl in six swans, still trash me when it comes to this. Truly...admirable.
And i can't deny, it hurts.
But i'll do it.
That's god decision for me.
The Untouchable that people won't want to get near, Martin
Date / Time : Thursday, April 23, 2009 / 2:48 AM
Ovation just leveled up today. :DDDDDD
And everyone's so determined to express.
Im soooooo happy for myself, and the crew.
I've been desperately searching for freedom in dance,
And never ever able to catch it.
But today, i got a better sight of it,
after getting advices from several dancers. : )))
It really helps me a great load.
And i realised, sometimes, a breakthrough,
the difference between a alright dancer, and a good dancer,
is just one mindset away.
It's just how much you want to express.
And i dance, for myself.
For now, i got to keep this state of mind a constant in me, before moving to the next step.
Cabbed back with Kupo and Fion. A very interesting cabbing experience. LOLS. It's a series of unfortunate event. First was the tyre stucked with a tree branch, and then's a fallen tree blocking the road, and the uncle went the wrong directions a few time.
THE BEST PART FOR ME'S AFTER ALL THIS SHIT, BY THE TIME I REACHED PASIR RIS, NO MORE BUS. SO I JUS CABBED FOR NOTHIN' AND I GOT TO CAB AGAIN!!!
Bwaaaa.
But...hmmm..
nvm.
the confused boy who wants to be even stronger, Martin.
Date / Time : Wednesday, April 22, 2009 / 5:23 AM
I swear im suffering from insomnia.
Can't fall asleep for nuts.
And.....
i hope im on the right track,
for whatever im doing,
and whatever that's coming.
'Six swans', quite a interesting fairytale to me.
I hope my charades's never obvious.
Martin.
Date / Time : / 2:30 AM
WHAT THE FUNK!!!
Quite a fulfilling for me.
Went over to Ter's house to play Wii with Niger. MY FIRST WII EXPERIENCE, and it's freaking high until we sweat like three mad dogs.
YALL KNOW?
YOU CAN USE WII TO TRAIN POPPING. After the whole thing, my hand muscle's practically numbed, could hardly feel my hits. :X
BATTLED MY 'NO LONGER KO-NIGHT PARTNER' TERRENCESPRINGMELON A GAME OF BOXING. IT'S SUPER RETARDED.
We keep knocking each other down and it just go on and on and on, until, he tyco-ly won martinshinigami by just ONE bar of life.
There's the footage of it on Facebook. You can dropby my facebook page to take a look. LOL.
P.S. im not like that normally. : PP Just for once, go all out, TO REVENGE. : )
Life is a long journey but not if you put an 's' in front of every mile.
One day, when you look back to things that ever made you emo, you gonna laugh at how silly you actually were.
The one who will be harder, better, faster, stronger for the crew, Martin.
Date / Time : Monday, April 20, 2009 / 11:58 PM
I think,
Im playing with fire.
And im about to get burnt.
Time, for a detour.
Again.
And the cycle continues.
Martin.
Date / Time : / 8:25 PM
Guys, this gonna be SUPER SHOCKING, BUT THE FACT IS,
I GOT DUMPED BY TERRENCESPRINGMELON FOR KONIGHT, HES JOINING WITH KEVINDOODLEPANTS INSTEAD, COS HE FEELS INSECURE, SO HE NEEDS A TALLER GAY PARTNER. :P
AND!!!
IM ATTACHED.
BEHOLD, MY NEW GIRLFRIEND!
Chio not!? MY BABY! THE RED HOT SEXY DIAMOND BACKPACK!! :DD So pretty, and it sits next to me during lecture. Sweet horr?
------------------------------------------------------------------ Anyway, back to school and its day 1 of my year 3 life. Pretty normal, and i feel so confident with my baby on my back. HAHAHA.
And my stupid mom Gen took a photo of me not paying attention to lecture, busy sms-ing away.
After class, met up with my Sexy Diamond Bro, Nic. WHOOHOO.
HE GOT THE EXACTLY SAME BAG AS MINE. : DD Guess Sexy Diamond's gettin more and more Hot in Singapore this days. I saw non-dancers walking ard with sexy diamond stuffs this days in Singapore.
And im gonna be broke for 2 weeks because i spent everything i got on the backpack. WHooping $170.
: P
Not a bad day to start off a new semester i supposed. : )))
Two weeks of Poverty!! And KO-night, here i come.
Gotta be harder, better, faster, stronger Martin.
Date / Time : / 2:20 AM
Emo posts make people puke.
I bet by the end of this month, no one will be here anymore.
Im disgusted by myself.
Bad day for me.
I finally, did registered for the Toefl exam.
So please, stop all the nagging and lectures on me.
Don't judge, because you don't even know me anymore.
What i want, what i need, how i feel, you have got no clue, NONE.
Lately I've been thinking about what I can do I've been stressing to fall back in love with you I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe You've been wonderful in all that you can be But it hurts when you say that you understand me So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I loved I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you
I've been pushing hard to open up the door Trying to take us back to where we were before But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore 'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now We've been walking around in circles for some time And I think we should head for the finish line So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I loved I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you
I, I... I'm so sorry baby But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave But I, I'll always remember how we came close... to being how I wanted to be I wanted you baby I wanted you
I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I loved I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you
Date / Time : Sunday, April 19, 2009 / 1:49 PM
Just woke up not long ago, and i feel so much better today. : )
You know, i dreamt that i was in a boyband (me,L,Nel,Zx and mic), and then i am performing at the very same stage as DBSK in one of the biggest Asia Concert. Got to take photos with them and all backstage. Boa kickstart the whole event.
And then there's this interesting casualties that Jaejoong's actually a girl, he confessed his love to Yunho.
OH SHHHIIIITT..
Haa. oh well, its just a dream.
And Dream Part 2....
This scene just replayed!! The classic hospital moment 2 years back in HongKong. So this is my brother's fashion sense. LOL.
But still, it was damn fun!! And i mastered cycling in less than one minute. No major crash throughout the whole experience. Which is DOPE, IM DOPE. : D
Stupid Niger and Chansee purposely twirl around the small path and grass to make life difficult for me, and stop shooting the stupid water from that tube. GGRRR. Serve Niger for crashing because he tried to bang into CS. HAHA. NOOBSHIT.
We cycled to quite a few spots in ECP, stopping over at the jetty to see fisherman's catch, talking rubbish while star gazing.
Had our dinner at mac, and that wrapped up the mini outing.
I realised, last night, after we got home, all of us got our own problems to deal with. isn't it a crew thing, that we linked to each other? :))
Love's confusing no?
But that's the beauty of it i guess.
Martin.
Date / Time : / 1:35 AM
To ya,
Love, doesn't always come with a reward.
If it hurts bad,
im just a pm/call/sms away.
Nevertheless, im proud of someone like you.
Who speak up for yourself.
You are the man. : )))
I totally get burnt in this area. HAA.
Smiles.**
Martin.
Date / Time : / 12:59 AM
So tired,
living up to everyone's expectations.
What about being myself, having my own needs.
And when i break free to breath some fresh air,
there's bound to be consequences waiting for me.
Like now.
Will yall be the ones bring me down,
or pull me together.
Im too drained to care for anything, living under people's shadow.
My way,
Martin.
Date / Time : Friday, April 17, 2009 / 7:34 PM
Very sick in the morning!
Didn't made it for Class chalet last night, and Week zero today.
Probably i lacked sleep/rest or something for the past few days.
And now, missed cg again.
Though im down with fever,
I felt the guilt hits me strong when i dreamt of a friend, that i disappointed alot when i never go for the class outing.
That sets me emo through the day
Supposed to be a emo post.
BUT.
Thanks a few frens for their sweet smses and concerns( Cs, kupo, gerger) , and niger's DOG. HAHAA.
It kinda make my day when i heard stupid Niger starts talking to his dog when im on the phone with him. Damn LOL.
So at late night, finally decided to catch a show with the crew and some Lion City lockers.
It was dope, the company and the show ' back to 17'.
The scene at the court when Zac read the letter to his wife,
probably the most touching part of the show for me.
Talk about protecting and fading out of the picture.
Today was alright luh. Just that im feeling more to the emo side, rather than being positive.
Went Week Zero Orientation today! And i kinda love 1B08!! Especially for Battle of the sexes, they are damn ON. : )))) LingYu's right. we can do a better job. But bwaaa, did what i could, trying to hide my depression, and those fatigue in me, because i never sleep at all the previous night.
Without fail, i got sabo-ed in orientation camp AGAIN this year to dance.
and they seemed satisfied with my anyhow freestyle.
Ok la, i dunno what i did, but they told me it's dope.
They like can already.
LOL.
But that is definitely not enough for a real battle.
Ovation Crew, cypher soon. im hungry, to dance.
Oh and there's a few freshies seem interested in learning dance. Maybe i will jus bring them over to Ovation session someday to get them to know more about dance.
I feel glad that Ovation takes on a new transformation.
Finally, there will be more serious sessioning.
: ))
haa, i feel that we lacked organisation.
Hope next session will be even better than today's session.
Can't wait. let's do this guys.
WE MUST WIN THE ANTI-SMOKING COMPETITION.
And and, the SuperHero Crew Tees' dopeShit.
HAHAA. im glad they feel good wearing it.
Btw, AnAn's class dope, and group 2 totally get burnt. LOL. Stupid Ben, Ovation and those dancefrens there, go make fun of me, i feel so malu in the studio. RAAAH. hahaha.
Last night me Kevin and JJ went to airport earlier to visit Kupo, who's been sick and starved, working OT. : (
Can't help much luh, but at least you know someone's around somewhere watching your back. : )
And we were having fun there ourselves, playing dance videos, watched 'I am Legend. Don't need to feel bad about it or what. Heh.
JJ owns me one man!! I carried the PS2 all the way down to the airport, with all the souvenirs so you guys can choose. Cabbed down somemmore. Respect to Martin. Self-dope*
And I think they like the Tees i bought for them. LOL, which is something nice to know!! : )
Thank you for staying till 6am with me guys. Appreciated. BBWWAA. see yall later in session!
and obviously my dad don't give much shit abit it,
and continue to play at the theme park, Sunway Lagoon.
It was alright luh...minus the raining part.
The pirate ship and Tomahawk quite dope, love the feeling hanging upside down, was wondering whether it will fall back, or make a 360 turn. LOLS.
Can see they enjoyed themselves. : ))
I DO TOO. Just that...im not into water games la. hahaha.
Been in this wet clothes of mine for the whole day.
FEEL SUPER SELF-CONSCIOUS because it's uncomfortable and i think im smelling like fish.
Only positive thing i want to comment's the coach. So much better than the one we came with! Comfy seats and personal TV, with quite some decent movies.
For the bad thing....it's freaking dirty. I can't stand it, especially when there's rain, everywhere's in a mess, the people seems much complicated here, i can't help but increase my awareness when dealing with this people.
But shopping's good though! I got something for the crew and some of the Juniors!
AWESOME STUFFS! Show u guys when i get back. : ) It's a series of dope crew identity!
Nothing much today though. Window shopped alot, and got isolated alot as well. They probably think im mentally retarded, jerking my body everywhere. OH WELL. What's new for martin. Im not afraid of how people judge me. They won't even remember the next morning anyway.
Food's awesome. : ))) I think ive been eating crap in Genting.
Been great, i feel more bonded with my family now, after all the things we been through.
Like erm, i don't know, i realised me and my dad, there's alot of ways we are very similar. Im really like a mini-him.
Our laughter, our rebellious nature against mom, and those child-like moment we shared, those simplicity in life that brings joy to us.
Got this video i think mommy captured me and dad playing pirate ship, and we were like standing up, hands up in the air.
Mom's like shouting from afar: OOOOIII. Dangerous! Don't do that.
And then me and dad will give her the who cares attitude. LOL.
And then we'll make fun of Sam because she got this female classmate who's in Genting too. BWAA. Lots more. Peeping at girls, sharing taste of girls. I don't know. :)
I simply love it, cherish the whole genting thing alot, cos i don't really have the luxury of having him around me all the time.
AND IM GLAD THAT HE STILL GOT ALOT OF HAIR! AND ITS BLACK :DDDD
Revenge. GRRR. CAUGHT EATING SWEETS.
With dope dad.
Food's awesome. : ))) I think ive been eating crap in Genting.
