26th December 1988 HongKong Singapore
Queens, NewYork Temasek Polytechnic
Nassau College
Business major
Dancer
B.I.Crew X Ovation Crew X TPDE X Marvel Crew
dance obsessively, excessively.
"Always always always...Keep it real But never too quick to judge, my friend."
Sept 1 - School Reopens
Sept 5 - StonyBrook Visit
Sept 6 - Hangout with poppers
Sept 14 - One year
Sept 19 - Observation night
Sept 29 - Mothership Funknight 3
Oct XX - King of NY
Then why are we judging and hating and competing and intimidated for the lamest things.
Hiphop, check it up, it is,
Urban social dance.
Just come together, feel free, let loose, learn from each other and have fun.
Play it nice man..
WELL. Nothin' to do with me, because im having my load of fun. :)
But,
Seriously,
People should really start counting their blessings.
Don't take it for granted,
you might just lose it the next moment.
harder better faster stronger, and i've seen enough people forgetting the reason why they love dance. Shin.
And believe me, I don't care who, but i gonna keep it real for them
Date / Time : Monday, July 27, 2009 / 1:17 AM
Awesome night.
I had my first-ever paid teaching experience at my mom's friend studio at ChinaTown.
TEACHING MIDDLE-AGED ADULTS HIPHOPYOOO!!
Gotta say, the place's UBER haunted,
like seriously, in a mess, all the chinese dance barangbarang stacked all over the place.
And my students' all 40 over, most of them were ex-instructors for ballroom and chinese dance.
But i guess....age's straining their bodies, they can hardly stretch and feel music.
Still, i should keep it real for them.
Ain't want them to walk out of my class just to learn choreography, but don't understand a thing about dance.
Regardless of who they are, i will just teach them with all my heart,
And i found myself, understand some very important things being an instructor.
1) I got to put myself in their shoes, understand their limitations.
2) Being VERY patient and learn how to breakdown the move for them, explain it in human language.
3)Eye-contact, interact not only to a few, but will all the students in class to keep them feel part of it.
WELLLL.
Feel kinda satisfying after the class, because i can really see them let loose and try to feel music, even at that kind of age. One of them's like really close their eyes and groove know! When i tell them to feel what they do, do it and mean it.
Hmmm....At the end of the whole teaching thing, i really hope they can have some take-away, not just dance-wise, but apply those freedom in expression to their daily life too. I don't know, maybe the whole image of us streetdancers will just change from here, and there won't be anymore stereotype as us, being the rebellious youngsters.
It's just, our way to express and spread love for passion.
Well, i won't mind going down and do this for free every week, teaching this older generation what dance's all about, and perhaps, im helping not only them and myself to grow, but also the dance scene indirectly.
And i got very positive feedbacks from them about the class, they want me to go back and teach every week.
Din see it coming, it's supposed to be just a voluntary kinda thing.
But, i officially quitted school, from this moment onwards.
This transitory point,
I gotta cherish it.
A road to my departure, So who's with me? who's game for some pain with, Shin.
You don't know Shin.
Date / Time : Sunday, July 19, 2009 / 9:46 PM
I..don't expect any of you to understand me.
Cus You've got no clue what im going through.
Even if i explain to you, who can really relate, seriously.
One word, departure, that's all i can say.
But behind it, there's alot of things to handle, emotion to clear, worries to deal with, love to filter, pain to bear, lonliness to control.
Im emotionally battling, day and night, racing against time.
So don't judge me.
Not now..dude...not now.
I only left with 2 months.
Yes, 2 fucking months.
Love me, hate me,
Im gone.
There's a song called 'takes time to love',
but hate to say, i don't have that luxury of time,
'that time wont wait for no one'
Shin.
Forever - Claude Kelly
Date / Time : / 8:03 PM
Forever - Claude Kelly
I didnt know what it meant to be alone I didnt know 'till the day you've gone, that i could ever feel this miserable, without you here with me
But now im standin lookin in the mirror Wonderin whatever happened to our love Deep down i thought that there would always be an us Since you disappeared i know,
That time wont wait for no one You gotta say what you want If you where here with me now I'de tell you your the one Coz your the closest thing to an angel, that i've ever met So don't you worry, ill never forget you
Although you cant be here by my side I feel you near me, when i close my eyes So i wont let your memory come to an end Coz when i said forever, thats just what i meant
Forever yeahh Forever yeaah Always in my heart forever
Now every moment im imagining your face And all the silly little things you used to say This is the pain that i can barely tolerate Never thought it'd be this rough
Now when i smile infront of people its a fake Coz deep inside im cryin for my baby Its gonna be a while before im ok Coz now that your gone i know,
That time wont wait for no one You gotta say what you want If you were here with my now I'de say that your the one Coz your the closest thing to an angel, that i've ever met So don't you worry i'll never forget you
Although you cant be here by my side I feel you near me, when i close my eyes So i wont let your memory come to an end Coz when i said forever, thats just what i meant
Wont let nothin come between us No matter how long or how hard it gets (oohhh) Dont you know you are the reason That i walk, i breathe, i liivveeee so..
Although you cant be here by my side I feel you near me, when i close my eyes So i wont let your memory come to an end Coz when i said forever, forever's what i meant
Forever yeahh Forever yeaah Always in my heart forever Forevers what i meant
Why i always found myself curling into a corner and tear at this hour.
My heart feels so heavy, as if there's a huge rock crushing me.
The pressure's suffocating me.
Why it feels so cold and have this sense of being totally unloved and unwanted.
As time goes, im getting more and more sensitive to my surrounding.
Every single actions, it just got themselves magnified.
How many days had it been, eversince i forced myself to be emotionally-detached from all mortals.
Insecurities?
Lonliness?
Don't gotta understand me.
Don't gotta love me.
FUCK ALL MY ISSUES AND I WILL TAKE ALL OF YOU DOWN WITH MY OWN HANDS.
don't depend on anyone, just shut up and live alone till the day you die. What's emotional pain to you. Stand alone, hold your head up. What doesn't kill, only makes you stronger. So be it.
Martin.
Kinda Wrong, but that's what make the world go round.
Date / Time : Thursday, July 16, 2009 / 11:27 PM
I realised, i changed.
But i gotta hold my head's up no matter what.
I won't let people walk all over me again.
Maybe its an ego,
but without ego,
how to protect others when i can't even protect and stand up for myself.
How to shine alone and stand on top of the world with a pussy and weak mind.
I want to be fearlessly free.
and somewhat fearsome in a respectful way,
man....i think i just lost it for posting something like that cos i seriously have no idea what im tryin to say and i just feel kinda anal now. HAHA.BYYEEE
Just....too tired from everything.
Be strong, and untouchable, Martin.
Cold and lonely night.
Date / Time : Wednesday, July 15, 2009 / 5:02 PM
When helplessness kicks in as the night falls.
Someone's hiding deep in the forest, crying day and night.
If you ever hear his scream, feel his pain, and even come around to show some love.
He appreciated all those concern, but you don't gotta save him.
In fact, every night, it's been a struggle to survive the sunrise.
Soon enough, the next morning symbolises a new chapter.
Yet....
He needs a remedy,
to take away and relieve all those pain from his lost soul and wounded heart.
He needs someone,
who can understand and relate his story.
Trying to be strong for the sake of not appearing to be weak?
Trying to be strong for the sake of hiding all those untold words and love?
Trying to be strong for the sake of letting the world go round?
Trying to be strong, just to cover up his departure.
In the middle of the night and youre fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
Telling myself im the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times i was certain you was gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,
When im still trying to get my act right.
What is the reason, when
you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer.
I shouldve been a [season],
guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words,
Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause i cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (stuck like a statue)
Ask myself why is you even with me,
After all the shit i put you through,
Why did you make it hard
Its like youre living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime were both at war,
You make me come around.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer for.
I shouldve been a [season],guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words,
verytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause i cant believe,That youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (stuck like a statue)
And youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, never. (stuck like a statue)
Every single day of my life i thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation, cant solve the equation
Its like you love me more than i love myself.
Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words,Everytime i disappoint you ,
Its just cause i cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (you are the reason,)
Stuck like a statue. (the reason for living,)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (the reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (youre so beautiful)
And youre so beautiful. (and i want you to feel it)
Stuck like a statue. (cause so bad im needing)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (youre the reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (youre so beautiful)
When a day is said and done,
And in the middle of the night youre fast asleep, my love
Im the luckiest man alive.
Martin.
Dance hard, dance smart.
Date / Time : / 2:01 AM
Went shopping with Kevin in the afternoon.
All da way to Queensway,
got myself a super chio New Era Cap, cost me like 60.
but i guess i needed it cus im getting more and more lazy this days,
and being vain always been my problem when im dancing.
So a cap will just do the magic for martin.
Save time, save wax, save myself from being conscious and badhair days.
Martin + Cap = haha, try me. ----------------------------------------------------------------
After that, went down to meet with AH J and Veron for the Fbodz Jam.
I SWEAR IT WAS DAMN FARNI. Like 60 over Fbodz in the studio, then suddenly out of the blue, got me and Kevin inside. But props to the Fbodz peeps we know, make us feel less awkward. GAHAHA.
Gotta say, eye-opener, seeing the whole Fbodz coming together and jam it out on the dancefloor.
Sadly, TPDE doesn't have this kinda culture.
OH WELL.
But i guess, we will just do it within the crew itself.
And im amazed by their new bloods.
They have got some sick skills and groove.
Love the style and their way of interpreting the music.
MAN. WE GOTTA WORK HARD HARD.
YEA, inspiring, and i see a bunch of people with much love for dance.
But i guess that's what left and right for me to do.
Write the most beautiful ending, Martin.
Losing an unfight battle.
Date / Time : / 12:51 AM
Promised not to swear.
But i can't help, feeling so fucking sore tonight.
Just when i told myself,
im ready,
this is where,
i will mark my real start,
the very moment im stepping up to express myself, and after that, things might be different and i will get enough confidence and freedom to stablize myself.
Slept early, did my warm-up, clear up my thoughts and get the mindset right before coming down,
just to realise i screwed up even before getting down to the floor.
Fucking loser.
And my frustration doesn't lie in blaming anyone else for it, don't get me wrong, seriously.
Just that....
I really wanted it
It might be just another battle to yall, but its my next step.
Sometimes, in life, on the dancefloor, it's now, or never.
But i found myself falling into the later before even making my choice.
Martin.
Where's the freedom?
Date / Time : Thursday, July 09, 2009 / 12:09 AM
Lost feel today.
Off-form.
Like, got a pressure on me.
I don't know why?
Is it because i expecting more out of myself now?
Or i got affected by something and i want to live up to it?
Or the battle drawing near i gotten abit too desperate?
Or maybe...
I sleep too little past few nights.
Tried really hard to get in the mood,
but can't seem to feel the music sink into my soul.
Like something's stopping me from feeling the music.
Heh, not much people joined us for the CHC Amazing Race today, cus virus' spreading! And i hope, Gen Chansee and whoever's sick now, get well soon : ) Definitely prayed for you guys this morning.
So must recover aite.
I myself also sickkkk. And i slept at 6am last night cus of my latest addiction, and i not gonna elaborate on it. LOL.
ANW, some photos on Amazing Race. Amazng Race at Century Square.STOP ONE!! 'Shi zi lu kou'
haha. personally, i found the game quite lame. But i'll play along anw. HAHA.
look at my angry face. Been staring at the food for 40 minutes cus we gotta plan and stuff to not exceed the 25 bucks allowance. ._. Stomach Growwwwwl.
Woke up in the morning, found myself with ulcer and a very bad flu.
Another sleeping day for me, while having fun with my SECRET HOBBY again, and i got my bro to play with me. HAHA. I SWEAR IT IS STUPIDLY FUN. ._.
PRESENTING, MY DRAWING. Martin's underwater world. HAHA.
Did it during the boring tutorial ever last evening, with kyle and Joanna brainstorming to see what should i add-on to it. And they agreed my duck's the best.
Sit next to me in class, and i'll entertain you with my nonsense.
If you judge everyone, you will have no time to love.
Just play nice, and see things on a more positive way.
No one, not even you, not event me, can be perfect.
perfectly imperfect, Martin.
Life's boredom.
Date / Time : Friday, July 03, 2009 / 11:57 AM
I can never understand why people smoke and shisha and stuff.
The most pointless addiction.
Just a random thought, while waiting for Gen in the library.
Not feeling too good today.
Am i thinking too much?
Oh well. Im just too tired from last night session and my secret 'hobby'.
Later tonight, Double O. Gotta recharge abit before heading down.
Or else i won't be feeling the music.
FREE FREE FREE.
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP.
And CLASS SUCKILY BORING TODAY
I GOTTA FIND 2 DANCERS FOR MY EVENT PERFORMANCE.
First 2 comes to my mind. Ter and Kevin.
LOL.
we'll see how.
Peace.
One up, Martin.
The Big Groove continues
Date / Time : Wednesday, July 01, 2009 / 4:13 PM
CLASS IS SOOOO BORING. GAAHHH.
AND HERE, I GOT MORE PHOTOS FOR TBG! From Sabrina. :)
Wo de shifu, Danny. DT.
Sabrina.
Okay. back to sleep.
Wake me up when lesson ends.
._.
Martin.
TBG 09 Dinner & Photos
Date / Time : / 2:14 AM
SOME PHOTOS FOR TBG 09!! THE DINNER AT EAST COAST WITH ALL THE PERFORMERS/ HELPERS!!
THANKS JASMINE FOR THE PHOTO!! MORE TO COME!! WAITING FOR YONGZHI AND SABRINA TO UPLOAD :))
The helpers for TBG2009 yoo.
im sorry, but i took photo with them. HAHA. DON'T JEALOUS LA! HAHA. Don't diss me on your blog k? HEHHEH. ._. They are, GODLY. How can i not become a small fan and seize the chance to take photo with COOLMINT!?
AND THIS IS A HOMIE. SD CREW REPRESENTINGHONGKONG. :DDD Rock!
Hes from SD crew too :DD Chat with him for quite abit, and we actually met before in HK Sexy Diamond Grand Opening. But i don't think we can rmb each other back then. HEH.
Helpers with Coolmint : )
That's all for now, folks. --------------------------------------------------------------
Today's test kinda common sense. Just find the budget question abit tricky. OH WELL. what's done's done.
Watched Transformer 2 with Joleeee the legendary bimbo who don't even know Tampines got cinema. ZOMG. KUKU. tsktsk. Thought i already cui enough. LOL.
Anw, the show's SUPER DUPER NICE YET DRAGGY UNTIL WILL FALL ASLEEP.
Better drink Redbull and have a heavy meal before catching it yo. It's about 2.5 hours long btw.
MADNESS. AND I FOUND THE WEIRDEST THING INSIDE THE SHOW CUTE.
THE LITTLE DECEPTICON WHO HUMPED MEGAN FOX'S LEG. HAHAHAHHA.
._.
Okay, after the show, down for suntec training.
Today did pure groove technique. Not bad, learnt more variation for groove, and im quite feeling it today.
We bonded abit while eating dinner opposite school.
TALK ABOUT DRAGONBALL. what the funk man. HAHA. And we concluded Jonas looks like Master Roshi.
._.
No one's looking,
No one's judging,
so let your mind be free,
and start dance,
for the music,
and only the music.
Shin.
TBG 09 Kick ass!
Date / Time : / 12:56 AM
THE BIG GROOVE 2009'S SIMPLY AWESOMMMMMMEEEEEE.
If you miss it, too bad. You just let the dopest local dance night ever slip past you.
LOTS AND LOTS OF PROPS TO ALL THE CREWS!!! Especially Coolmint. You girls bring dance to another level. My hair stands, and its like, witnessing a piece of ART. Craziest showcase ever.
5+5's poppers/lockers WERE ALL SIIICCCCKKKK BASTARDS! If i got sharingan, i will copy all their skills and musicality. ASSSEESS.
Get to see All-stars doing the suck-in trick LIVE. :D And HONGKONG GOT DANCE yo. SD crew's pretty good themselves with their LA style.
Local crews' not too bad either. SFB and O-crew. DOPE. :))))
Abit sad though, cos i missed out the whole WCO segment. Got to run out buy drinks for the performers. OH WELL. Aaron promised to buy the dvd and watch together with the helpers who missed the show. :D Im cool with it yea?
IN FACT, i feel like the luckiest boy being part of the helpers. Got the chance to get up close, talk to them, and take photos with them and stuff. :DD
WHY AM I LUCKY?
1) Take photo with coolmint and shake hands with them :DD
2) All-stars did the one-hand lift trick on me!! DOPE AH :D 3) All-stars gave me their latest album and a phillipine COIN. :D
4) Take photo with all of the overseas crews.
And most importantly, i witness, what it means by,
dance, brings people together.
We might have come from different countries, with different skin color, different family background, different walks of life.
But at the end of the day, we are still,
one big family, spreading the love for dance.
Sad that it only last for one night, and they are all going back to where they came from.
Amazng Race at Century Square.
STOP ONE!! 'Shi zi lu kou'
AND THIS IS A 
Hes from SD crew too :DD Chat with him for quite 
Helpers with 
