Weak heart? or just being the sentimental me?

Strong mind? or should i say im just being stubborn?

It's screaming again, for some unknown reasons.

Or maybe it's just a mixtures of my issues.

Weak heart: "Someone save me..im not okay.."

Strong mind: " Save yourself, loser. "

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Why i always found myself curling into a corner and tear at this hour.

My heart feels so heavy, as if there's a huge rock crushing me.

The pressure's suffocating me.

Why it feels so cold and have this sense of being totally unloved and unwanted.

As time goes, im getting more and more sensitive to my surrounding.

Every single actions, it just got themselves magnified.

How many days had it been, eversince i forced myself to be emotionally-detached from all mortals.

Insecurities?

Lonliness?


Don't gotta understand me.

Don't gotta love me.



FUCK ALL MY ISSUES AND I WILL TAKE ALL OF YOU DOWN WITH MY OWN HANDS.

don't depend on anyone,
just shut up and live alone till the day you die.
What's emotional pain to you.
Stand alone, hold your head up.
What doesn't kill, only makes you stronger.
So be it.

Martin.