First white christmas.

I thought i'll be happy....

But da...

im kinda fated,

to be alone on the 26th,

like the previous 20s.




























And it won't make a difference this year,

Even on my 18,


It passes,

like it doesn't exist.

Jealous know, all the birthday parties, all the cakes and candles, all the love.

I only remember getting stucked in HongKong every december and my birthday's nothing compared to grandma's, at least that how they see it. She's gonna be here in a few days. History repeats, she got the occasion, and i can just stfu n pretend.

So yea. i'll tryna be strong, and take my mind off negativities.

If imma make a birthday wish...

i wish...

"26th never come again."


Guess its never my thing,
martin.