Today, another hopeful yet fruitless trip to iron things out.

Can't sleep last night, praying and worrying the outcome the next day.

Ended really nothing much,

just exchangin convo, walkin in circles.

Then i realised, despite all my efforts put in to find a way to get through this,

im still not making even a slight progress.

I tried every single shit that seems to give me some hope,

but nothing's helping.

It's just wishful thinking all along.

I lost all my spirit and drive to continue fightin this prolong battle.

Damn...im all worn out.


That's it.

No more of me typing emails after emails,

no more of me waiting eagerly, desperately for replies,

no more of me begging around for help,

no more of me listening to all the rejections,

no more of me hugging myself to sleep,

no more of me, getting compared.

No more of me,

putting down my pride.


If you don't want to give it to me,

this is for you.

_]_

Fuck it.

FML.


Those who tried helping, im grateful.

Thanks.



What's faith when all hopes failed,
Shin.