26th December 1988
Temasek Polytechnic
Business/Marketing student
TPDE
Dancer
Basic Instinct X Ovation Crew
dance-a-holic
Freedom-licious
"Learn to Let Go And Start Representing yourself."
Heart-to-Heart?
Do you feel me?
Current love: Everyone.
Current want: You..
Current challenge: 19.10.09
Current nightmare: Still Distance, space and time.
Shall we talk?
Calender 2009
keep me going
18th Oct - Farewell kbox/iceskate
19th Oct - Last day with baby
20th Oct - I guess that's goodbye loves.
21th Oct - Day one in HongKong
22th Oct - Migration Interview
23th oct - HKU visit with L
24th Oct - Kbox with cousins
26th oct - Mom's departure to Singapore
17th Oct - Mahjong
28th Oct - WarGame
1st Nov - Dad's departure to Singapore
16-18th Oct - Korea trip
19th Nov - Departure, to the whole new world, NYC
Date / Time : Wednesday, November 25, 2009 / 1:59 PM
Why the light still refuse to shine,
despite my countless effort to make it work.
The 10Fs haunting me every night,
i hope things will fall into place soon,
as long as i don't fall and give in.
Only got one month left to settle this before Spring University admission comes to a close.
Ugghhh...F-uped...So frustrating,
but i just gotta keep finding alternatives and keep trying.
It's at this kind of tough times,
i realised,
i need you so much, baby.
I need some comfort,
no matter how strong i can be.
Insomnia, shin.
Pretty colorless frame.
Date / Time : Tuesday, November 24, 2009 / 12:20 PM
Every morning,
push over the door,
its as if im trapped in a fantasyland of my own.
A pretty cooling sight to set me off for the day's journey.
Never failed to mesmorise me with the things here, the people, the culture, the lifestyle, this whole new world different from anything i came across.
Yet...
It's just another black and white frame,
without you.
Missing everyone, missing her, Shin.
New.York Week O.N.E.
Date / Time : Monday, November 23, 2009 / 9:17 AM
Finally, got the time to do this.
The past week's been a really crazy hectic one for Shin,
And things were getting betta as we gradually clear all the necessary issues and procedures to be done.
Too many of them to be named, i'lljus briefly list out some of the things i remember.
Things ironed out - Apply for Social Security Card and other related immigrant procedures - Apply for bank accounts - Settle residential document - DIYfurniture for new house ( only my room completed) - Buy Washing machine and Beds - Basic necessities purchased ( Shampoo and blablablaaa, more to be done) - Visit Colleges to enroll ( Found Old WestBury, but yet to apply) - Iphone 3G purchased, its a pretty awesome invention. - Request for original transcript from TP - BLOG, which im doing currently. lol.
Things Yet to be done - Awaiting reply from TP for original transcript
- Visit Broadway dance center - Tour around with Crosses' dajie - much more to do on the renovation of new home
- Get driving licence - Apply SUNY - Purchase something like Ezlink - Loads more of things to buy and do, that's all i remember as of now.
Interesting findings - People buy cars and use petrol like FREE. Uncle Wai alone, got 4 cars. wtf, and its considered normal. - Lobster season now, US$3.50/lb! Too bad i cannot eat. - ANGMOH'S TALL, now this is a MYTH. - EDIT: they CAN BE tall, most are just ardasians' height. Oh but the blacks are tall here, this one's true. - Tips' compulsory here. - my house got a backyard which i so gonna dominate it and the rooftop's pretty cool to sit and emo. - NEWYORK'SCOLD LIKE FUCK. - But i like it, cause i don't have to sweat. - AND I SAW KOREAN CHICKS HERE earlier on when i visit this korean supermarket. - People here, their English all damnimba. hahas. - And i think im slowly gettin the hang of it, the Slang.
Yeahh, that sums up what i did and experienced past days, and finding school ain't easy at all, cusTP screwed me up with the 10Fs. And im still workin my way to clear all those obstacles so that i could get into Old Westbury University of NY.
Gotta work and take respinsiblites for what i desire. Internal Locus of control, but still,
Hope things will fall into place somehow.
And baby just flew off to ShangHai.
Awww man..that's 8 days cutting off communication. Hope she will be well and all, cusive heard about the organ-thefts. kinda freaky.
baby, if you read this, PLLLEAASSEE stick and stay close to your parents. Don't do anything that risk yourself there yes? Wear extra layers of clothes, those tinyfats of yours not gonna pretect you. (:
Me, loves you.
More photos to be uploaded. Now that things are gettin alright, i will maintain this place better.
YEAHHH, hear from me soon guys.
P.S Lobsters for dinner tonight!
ALERT: 4 Jolenes spotted!
missing everyone, Shin.
HongKong, Last day, New York, day zero.
Date / Time : Saturday, November 21, 2009 / 10:12 AM
Touched down NY, new environment, new start.
But im already missing all my homies back there...
And here i am, rotting at grandma's place early in the morning,
trying to blog and do some updates.
Some interesting changes' that mom will be flying off to Singapore later tonight, and dad will be joinin her on sunday. They will only be back like on the 11th November. And that would mean....FREEDOM, and more privacy. I swear it sucks to stay here cus they are always home and i feel so uneasy webcaming, and that doesn't mean im doing anything WRONG, haa i just don't like people constantly observing me.
And on the 16th November, will be stopping over Korea for a few days, before departing to my final destination, New York City.
Anw, this wednesday, will be going War-game with my cousins and his friends. 10 vs 10 paintball game that lasts for 6 hours. Gonna be awesome fun, and later on tonight going out shopping with Nelson and L, not sure if im staying at grandma's place, cus she gonna be lonely if i go over to cousin's place to stay. But then again, i really hate it here, feeeling kinda shitty last night, and very lonely. Darn, should i be cruel to myself? Everyday spent here, just make me more and more lethargic.
Curse*curse*curse*....and to add on, mom and grandma quarrelled for god-knows-what-reasons just now. So i guess its safer for me to go my cousin place, save myself from meddling into their business. heeeh.
24th Oct - Dinner at Grandma's place and Kboxovernightehhh.
Went over to grandma's place for dinner, and we did some camwhoring on our trip down.
Then after dinner, later at night, we went for kbox. It's 8 hours of kbox, all the way to the next morning. Did alot of crazy stuff inside. From camwhoring, filming stupid videos of us singing, to song battle, and later, delicating a song to our loved ones, and videoing it down. Heh.
Much much more photos and videos to be added/posted either here or facebook. heh. yeahhh..
Never sleep at all, that explained why i mia-ed for the past 2 nights.
And here goes, some photos of us visiting our late grandpa. Nelson gotta work, and L's too dead to go anywhere after last night. Heh, but joining me later for shopping yoo. (:
Yeah, photos of my 4 younger cousins. Used to be cute when they were younger. Now they are just plain NOISY AND IRRITATING. AAHHA.
Meee, still feeling f-ing sleepy after last night...and i too lazy to do hair in the morning, so just put on my headgears and set for the day.
Photos with grandpa-
This lil demon here is L's brother. You won't want to know him, like seriously. But somehow became my follower, after i accepted his pineapple jelly specially made for mehhh. Him, always trying so hard to mix with the older clique of cousin. hahahahas, and never failed to get bullied.
Sorry, i vain, i admit. aahahhahas. Alright, then we off for lunch.
My lunch! :D
Shopping afterward!
And i got something for goodlove. <3
Hope you will like it. heh.
It's on our blog sweet.
AND THAT! kinda sum up what i did!
TOO LAZY, cos i got alot of things to do later on!
Late already! HAHA.
Me, changing and preparing to go Shatin to eat dinner at my cousin's place already!
Blog again tmr or sth! With all the videos we took so far.
YEAHHHHH. And im glad that im sleeping over my L's place later.
All the lonliness and insecurities, will be seized temporarily.
Miss my friends loads,
miss zhu lian cha cha,
miss the affiliation.
Cos i think i need it.
walk on, Shin.
HongKong days, Start of something new.
Date / Time : Saturday, October 24, 2009 / 4:34 PM
Finally got the time now to do this. Anw, im good here in HongKong, and its really my kind of thing to stay here. So don't gotta worry for me, and shin misses everyone back there.
Just yesterday, went to meet the judge for this interview with my family and whoever-relatives going over with us. And now, we are officially accepted into NYC, just take me to stay in NY for around 2-3 years to become a citizen of the States.
'Koped' L's SexyDiamond Jacket to camwhore abit, before leaving house to HongKong-University, he will be my tour-guide of the day yes.
Camera added to the 'Martin's survivor kit'.
It's part of my homework now to camwhore ya noe. Later someone misses me too much how? haas, and i find it quite important to blog about my daily in-and-out life now, since we got lesser way to inform and communicate with each other. wink wink*
The street of HongKong, Causeway Bay, SexyDiamond there! But never dropby cus i forgot where is it. LOL.
HongKong U! And sorry i never really take much photos of it. haa. It's just one skyscraper and nth more for this campus.
Life in HKU's pretty much like Poly. Projects....more projects...and bla bla bla..Comlabs' a direct bite from TP's Silicon Lab.
Then during break, L brought me and his friends to eat here.
VERY NICEEE AND APPETTIZING~~. HAA.
After lunch, back to the lab, and i was so bored cus they are discussing project. SO..i decided to randomly call Gen. Heh heh heh and disturb her. 28th of October will be going to play Wargame with my cousins' friend. 10 vs 10. LIKE FUN SIOH. Sure got alot of bruises after that. YEAH, then i will look more manly. haaa.
The day continued as we went down to meet another group of friends to interview some manager of a japanese restaurant ( Note: L's a LRM student in HKU), and i quite impressed by their professionalism. Later at night...
Awwww...so cute. hahas. but i guess, she's very drained after a long day in school, dance training and all. She dozed off halfway and i snapshot-ed it down. HAAA. Should i post it on facebook? hee. Got more unglam ones. OOPS. HEEEH.
You know how much you mean to me, and i know how much i mean to you. Heh. Best friend will always remain as bestfriend. Next month's your ORD. like, finally! your out of the shithole. Make good use of time before you get into Uni wokay? I want to see you with long hair again. HAHHA. me, you, best pal, always the 2 idiots constantly running ard in YJ desperately escaping from discipline master's attempt of cutting our precious hair.
Take care bro, later i come back you die already, where to redeem my 20bucks and supper. haaa. You've been one of my bestfriend and dance/shopping-partner! (: When i come back, we'll session and chill again, and kinda sound gay, but i especially miss you ter jonas keiths. But when we meet again, you know you jus gotta apply sunblock, cus imma gonna burn you, reduce you to ash. Train hard pants! we'll been thru so much tgt in our dance journey...
------------------------------------------------------------------------- To Ah Ter ( TerrenceSpringMelon!),
With Kevin, we are the Ovation Trio, and i truly treat both of you like my best best bro. Whenever the 3 of us come together, i will feel this special bond between us. And rmb those time when we did our debut performance for this church event. It's totally crazy, to just meetup and train 10 minutes, then L4d few hours. (: And then the time when i get my first paid dance perf. You are one who bring me to a greater height in dance. And my beatbox's awesome cus of you too. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Take good care of yourself, and i lub you bigbig ter. Please go find a constant job soon, so that you can yang da sao. And then, i will have no worries for my bro here, cus your great dude. Same goes to you, i will burn you to ash when i come back.
My black tie bro! man....i've seen you cried a lot past few days before departure. And it really breaks my heart. Life's never dull with you around, and now that you are not ard, i miss all your stupid jokes and spastic-ness. I won't ask you to stay strong because you are one tough shit. Just do what you like and go for whatever you want to do in the future. And yeah, B.I, Black tie, DRC, Ovation, Lostnfound definitely won't be our last crew with each other. there will be more to come. so wait for me to come back bro. (: and if that day comes, i will come over to ur place and stay, ur turn to cook me some nice food. haa. and ofcs, i will burn you to ash when i come back.
my retarded look-alike. WHY DA HELL YOU CRY IN THE VIDEO. Hahas. It triggers, and then, i no longer can hold back my tears. Younger than me, but always acting like the bigger bro of mine. Someone who always been looking out for me, and i know it, and i really love this bro of mine. keiths....I hope i can stay longer, because i really want to join this year 'FTL' with you, be it hiphop or popping. But i guess, we just gotta wait abit longer, then when i come back, let's do this again. And we gotta redeem ourselve for ftl08.
Won't say i want to burn you when i come back, cus i want to burn people with ya! (:
you are simply awesome and inspiring in so many ways. We've come this far together...dancemate...classmate...hangoutmate...churchmate...crewmate...and then...even mom and son. hahahas, and i gotta say i love you, and i hope you continue to persuade your dream, let your voice touches and reaches out to even more people out there, heal them with your voice. And then, i hope i can see you really soon somewhere and i can be one of the first few to get your album. Be waiting to hear from you, and your son will work hard and continue doin you proud over here, at the states. your bible, i'll cherish it. Please take good care of yourself and your back. you still own me a kbox and iceskate session. will be comin back to redeem it. YEAH...son loves mommy. PEACEE. heh.
Live happily ever after with your YewYew(oily-oily, hahaha!). I can't give you friskies anytime soon, but i know he will feed you with love, and so will your friends. Take good care of yourself, and stay the way you are, the big fat round white bimbotic pussy cat 'kupo' of the legendary poppinshin. (: It was nice, knowing you, and we've been thru quite abit together though its only a short one year. will be missed, and stop biting me! Biter! haha. Peace.
I miss bullying you, it's always so uber fun to irritate you. HEH. But now that im gone, please take good care of yourself!! And i always find it very amusing that we became really close dancemate when we'll used to be not that close even in G9. haha! You've been a great friend of mine and i love my meimei. Be more confidence, and try to go out and session with the lockers/hiphopers out there, and im sure you will reach a whole new level in dance. (: Just keep trying, and don't gotta care about what others think about you. Dance like no one's watching! Fion improved loads since she first stepped into tpde. And i'll keep improving too! See you in the circle when i get back. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
To Aaron and Chewie,
Firstly, im so sorry that i never been a good christian. But despite that fact, yall never give up on me. Every single sunday, without fail, a message will be sent to martin, reminding him where they are sitting in expo hall 8. And then, this idiot here will never ever show up. haa..well....I just don't have that drive to commit, i don't know why. But, deep in my heart, i really do believe in god, and i still do seek him every now and then. You guys are great friends to me, and the weirder here will come back in half a year, then maybe when i see the message again, the outcome will be different. Till then, please take care (:
hahas. dude, out of everyone, i worried for you the most. Please get your focus right, study hard and stay positive always, be it for yourself, for your frens, or her. And i'll miss you over here. Jiayou son. And today's your birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU and now ur officially a big boy. Gotta be stronger, and protect everything precious to you. I'll be keep reading you and everyone's blog. When i come back, we shall session and l4d again aite! PEACEEEE.
I missed the Ovation days, when all of us come together and improve together. Frankly speaking, that's the time where i actually improved the most, as i start to take it out of tpde and start to mingle with all the dancers out of my cca alone. You've got good foundation for dance and i really hope to see you go far. So jiayou k! When i come back, let's crossteach each other what we learn for the past 6 months. And i will charge you 50 cents/ song too. HAHAHAHA. See you very soon but not so soon. (:
My lao nai ma and cao bu! I never ever see it that i brought both of you into Basic Instinct and all. I jus feel its dance that bind and make everyone comes together and learn from each other. Its all in the name of spreading love yeaahhh!! heh. And i gonna miss you both alot cus i feel really comfortable with yall around me. Missed tranny for clapping and laughing and taking 27 with me everyday, missed AH J for spamming vulgarities when we late for training. LOL.
I admit starting i don't really like you cus you are so distracted whenever i teach you popping back in the combased days. Heh. But now, ur a totally different man to me. You did a really great job as a leader of the crew, and i respect you for that. (: You and Jonas never failed to crack up random jokes to make training so enjoyable for us. And dude, i heard ur stopping dancing. Please continue, and be it as a hobby, jus spend some time comin down for session and chill with everyone. Everyone misses you. heh. And i miss you too. Train hard! (:
To My TPDE/Sessioning(Ovation,B.I, Wed) dancemates,
It was my honor to dance along side with everyone, improve together, persuading dream as a team. All the tough and crazy time tgt, i won't forget. And it's a pity that i never get to know some of them betta, especially the juniors. See so much potential in this current batch. Hope they can conquer themselves and take it to the next level very soon. And I, will work hard over here at NYC as well. PEACEE. hee.
To my dancing masters ( Danny, Rahim, Jer, Ben, AnAn, Gin, Ryan, Xiaohei, Niger),
Im very grateful to this people, simple 'cause they are so inspiring, and they guide me one way or another during my dance journey, moulding me into what im today. Really really hope to see you guys again, and when i come back, i will show you a better me not only as a dancer, but as a person. Keep spreading the lovee. (:
To May, Yanti, Amelia, Iman, Fion, Fatin and other parts of G9/Ophix,
I love you guys. Though at first, i don't really like it cus yall were soooo freakin loud and public nuisanse. But soon, i realised you guys were a sweet bunch and i feel very comfortable to hang out with ya. And i still rmb how shocked and suay i felt when i know May's my classmate for year 1. L.O.L. But i guess, without May, being the noisy dancing queen ard and brought me with her to know more of the camp peepz and G9, martin's polylife gonna be so uber boring. heh. So yeah, yall definitely someone who create an impact for shin. (: Im grateful, and all the time spent having fun tonning, doing weird cheers, i will remember. Take care people. ;)
i love you so so much. And i really hope that you can be here with me now, so that i can hold you tight in my arm, give you all the assurance that i'll be with you all the way. Don't really know what future offers for us, but i promise i will do my best to keep this precious love running. six month baby, i'll be back for vacation. Just stay very positive and spend more time with friends and all. Badlove will come online whenever possible, skype with you, webcam with you, update our secret blog, and constantly inform you bout my daily occurence.
See you tonight love.
Me, loves you.
And im on a restart button, Shin.
Finale.
Date / Time : / 12:54 PM
This is my last moment.
Taking a last good look at the surrounding.
It's time to go.
Had our very last dinner, and she's now with me.
Fulfilled her wish of helping me style hair, and you gotta help me wash it when i get back as promised aite?
I've got too many debts to pay, and too many ppl owning me things!!
So......all this little things, shall create a bond between you and I for the longest time.
Flights at 6.40am, time-check, it's 1am now, and i should get going.
P.S. SengKang's actually pretty awesome, and so's Singapore though it sucks cos the weather kills penguin like me.
